Venting Room

[patrick]

And now I'll vent. Why do we keep starting wars and sending our kids off to be chewed up in them? And when they come back all chewed up why are we so stingy with our support for them? Do the people who think the wars are necessary have any idea how the people that get sent to them feel before, during, and after the wars? I guess humankind is a warlike being, and that wars always have been and probably always will be.

And it's not just us in the U.S. who are suffering. When I was in Iraq last year I drove all over the country and saw the devastation of the war on the people there. There seems to be nothing that can be done to stop it. The whole world seems to want to fight. Or at least the people in power do.

Okay, okay. I'll stop now. No place to go and nothing to do with this line of thought.

 

[Kunoichi]

I'm sick and tired of things coming on again and again. I'm going blind...I don't really know how long I have or maybe I won't go blind, who knows. went to docs who said that they won't do crap until I AM blind....ugh! I'm so scared! I'm only 21...haven't I freaking endured enough? And my poor hubby has to endure this too..even tho he is so loving and supportive...ugh!!!!!!!!!!!

 

[cragger65]

Pat, I didn't realize you had been to Iraq. Was this to confront things for yourself? You are full of surprises. I couldn't agree more with you, the people at the top don't seem to give a shit how many people's lives are effected by war, and you're average Joe on the street is only shown the "thumb's up" shots. War should really be abolished, but I realize that will never happen on this planet. All it seems to leave us is prayer.

Kuno, that is a plateful to deal with. I have heard that this can be brought on by internal stress, and if that is the case, it seems it would be reversible. My heart goes out to you.

Dave

 

[2notbedefeated]

Kuno, My heart goes out to you. It certainly doesn't help for one trying to move forward in their and actual feeling like this are going forward, and the "something" comes up to trip us up. I'm feeling angry for you. I will be praying if you want me to?

I have had severly visual migraines for over 2 years. Doc can't cmoe up with any reason why. I currently have blind spots in my vision that when look at a word, up down, or in the midldle doesn't matter, theses spots are one two leter past the focal point. Atleast I this, it's tricky however,k when you are lookin a purchase pricess and mathematic and I never see the number to the left - so if sothing was 19.99 I would see 9.99, and realize it couldn't be right so I'd have to learn and compenstate. It slows down my reading. it is what it is I guess. I had 3 angiograms becaus ot it., but never go there!

Hang in there, no, rest in HIs loving arm if you can

 

[Larry]

Not sure about this website

Hi, these postings are screened by someone. How can you call that a venting room at all. I wrote several things and cannot find them let alone get a response.

 

[Mina]

Hi, Larry - Yes, posts by newer members are indeed screened, including the venting room. It helps keep this community safe for all involved.

In response to your question, there have so far been no posts deleted or removed from this thread. You do have one on page 2, and another member did respond further down the thread.

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[Nat]

I second hating this war. I grew up an army brat so the military has always supported me and made my life better. I used to be so proud of the military, it was something I wanted to do when I got older. Now I just see that it destroys lives. The lives of the people who live in the war torn countries, the lives of the people who are deployed and their families. It took someone from me that I probably will never get back. I feel so betrayed by the military. They train these men and women for everything except how to deal with everything when they get back. The sad part is that I know there are probably a lot of soldiers who need help and probably aren't getting it and there is nothing I can do. So frustrating!

 

[dharmaBum]

Venting about letting go of anger and resentment

I feel totally confused. I didn't feel angry (in my current life today time) until I started seeing a counselor about how to reduce PTSD symptoms so I could meditate without recently triggered trauma memories or fear reactions. Then I started to feel angry about an array of childhood traumas that I thought about clearly with my adult mind- and now I'm told that I continue to have sleep disturbances, nightmares, and invasive imagery because of my resentment for the negative sh*t that happened to me which I couldn't prevent. I don't really understand. I feel like I'm either misinterpreting what the counselor means or I'm just fed up w/the whole business.

I feel angry that there is one more thing that I have to do to heal my brain from the impacts of trauma- when not only does it not seem like the perpetrators of abuse have done any or much to help me, but have gone on to continue traumatizing other children. That one more thing to be letting go of the anger that I didn't feel until I started counseling. Totally confused!!!

 

[Mina]

I just sent this vent to my best friend, who lives across the country...

"I know I've said this before, but please, please, puh-leeeease do NOT call me before 11am my time (1pm your time) on weekends, unless it's a true emergency (ie, serious injury or death). I'm sure your intentions were good, but it's really upsetting to me, especially when I've asked several times before. When I'm asleep and my phone goes off, it startles me quite badly, right into fight-or-flight mode. I don't shut it off because I'm not comfortable doing that with my husband working until 3am or later. At 8:30 this morning, not only was I triggered awake, I couldn't get back to sleep after the phone went off...which ****ing sucks when I didn't get to sleep til almost 2am, have had a long week, was already really short on sleep, will be losing to daylight savings anyway tonight, and was really looking forward to sleeping in. It is really frustrating starting my weekend exhausted and on a bad note."

Honestly, I don't know why she can't look at a bloody clock before she picks up the phone. This happens about once a month, and several times I have nicely asked her to not call me on Saturday or Sunday mornings. The text I got after I didn't pick up was, "What colors r ur kitchen?" Uhhhh...you woke me up for THAT?!?

And no, shutting my phone off or putting it on silent isn't an option. As she already knows, my husband is a cop and works til the middle of the night. She's a former cop, and has been in relationships with cops, so she knows how that goes.

Grrrrr...I have been trying not to be all morning, but am just frustrated with this stupid shit.

 

[fin]

Am screaming I don't know if it's peppermint patty style or snoopy doing that funny sideways silent scream thing he does..... AUUUUUUUUUUUGhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!

Mina I wish I could have addressed something in the same way you were able to above. I have tried in the past and on one particular occasion nothing worked, no matter how little I said. I was told make a formal complaint about something and then they needed every tiny little bit of information, times and dates and everything, and everything I said was analysed, to check that I had not behaved inappropriately. And I know that this is normal but I fond it weird that when I try to do that on other occassions I am the one that is weird. Hah!!!!

And on one occassion when I was sexually abused, despite the person I had gone to for help knowing that one of my abusers was an abuser already, I was still put under a microscope.

It bugs the hell out of me and I have let some very bad things go unchecked because of it. Generally now I am able to cope to some extent on this, but I don't know how much of that is due to the fact that I no longer really interact with anyone, because my trust has been so badly placed.

I hate this Grrrrrr PTSDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD. I really hate it, because I am ........I guess so long as I am...............

And wasting my Grrrrrrrrr words on something, I hate that. I really do.....
I think sometimes I can switch into that answering every question mode now because of my past...... and then I find I have to just keep going until it is worked through. Well that is what I am finding at the moment. I try so bloody hard, I really do........... Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!

AUGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh


you know I thought for a while that perhaps this venting room was not such a good idea, but I am coming back around to it now.

says fin walking away a little ruffled but better for having screamed without hurting her throat....hah and now again back to talking about myself in some kind of third person kind of way. i dont know if it is third person...but I know I am very rambly now..... hah!!! maybe sleep and my sense of humour will start coming back a little at a time.

I JUST reallly hate being made to feel like I am stupid ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
and it isnt like I talk that much in real life and theres another joke.......LOL hah!

every nit picking little detail, checked and double checked. ahhhhhhhhhhh!!! and then


and living constantly in fear...I really hate that I so do I hate it!!! I hate it!!!. and then some one telling me ......well that doesnt matter either....I think I may have screamed and stuff enough .

 

[Ruth09]

I have a venting tree in my yard. I take a old blanket and my dog and we just watch the clouds go by. Well,.... I watch the clouds, my dog watches the cars.

But, here,..... "THOSE SORRY !@#$!@#$ at VA!"

ok,...done.

Thanks.

 

[fin]

I like that Ruth a 'Venting Tree'. cool.