dottiexdottie
New Here
When I was little I remember my family being very sexually open. What I mean is, my mom would watch porn and look at lewd pictures with my older brother, my older brother would look at porn with my older sister (and it later came out that he sexually assaulted her too, he would bribe her by saying he wouldn’t let her hold me when I was a baby unless he could see and touch her down there, i was maybe around 1 or 2) and then my older sister taught me about porn and masturbation when I was around 8-9. My mom also had naked polaroids of me in our family album, my legs were spread and I was crying heavily in the picture. My mom had these home videos of her having sex and undressing for the camera, which she also watched with my older brother. My mom always talked about sex too, and always had different guys around, usually younger than her. Anyways, my mom caught me masturbating one day and started yelling at me and asking me who taught me that, I lied and said it was friends at school that taught me because I didn’t want my sister to be mad that I told on her. My mom, my sister and my brother then started yelling about how nasty I was and laughing at me. Now I struggle with a porn addiction. I guess I just developed it from watching it all those times, I just feel confused, I liked watching porn so much, but I don’t know….was any of this abuse? I think about it and just feel so weird and alone