I'll start. ................
I feel a greatly alarmed.
I feel very angry.
I feel cautious.
I feel con...
Alone,
Lonely,
Feel Dumb about life stuff,
Angry for wasting so much time,
Hurt because my father has been alienated,
Lonely, Alone,
Hurt because I have no close or intimate family connections....maybe I never did and just realize it now,
Sad,
Remorseful for anything negative I did, unknowingly, to hurt my daughter (like maybe less than effective parenting),
Anxious about retiring,
Disabled physically, spiritually, emotionally.....
Struggling....such a learning curve not having a spouse,
Missing my grandson,
Grateful I have one good friend, and two family members who live 2000 miles away.....and I can go there for a peaceful drama free visit,
Trapped in a family-less void without a real belonging,
Suspicious.....vulnerable.....insecure......always wondering when the next hint of drama will begin,
Resolved to stop the drama.....
Struggling with therapy......
Impatient to "start over" and make new memories and find happiness, wholeness,
meness.