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What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

I am feeling relief that I was able to go out today. I needed to get some school supplies for a project my boys are doing at school. They are putting shoe boxes of school supplies together for children in Africa. I was afraid I wouldn't be able to do it. I decided that no matter how much pain or how tired I was that these children were just too important to not do it! It almost could have been a scene from a comedy. When I went over it looked like there was a storm coming in. Well, by the time I was coming back it was sleeting, the wind was blowing super hard. I was holding onto the hood of my coat with one hand and peddling the bike very hard and almost standing still because of the wind.:eek: Phew!! It's done and now I can relax again!:):tup: Or should I say I HAVE to relax because my body doesn't want to work?!;)
 
I'm feeling like there is no hope out of this hole. My antidepressant was upped this morning but think we are going stop mood stabiliser. I dont know what's best anymore I'm worried about upcoming holiday period it's hard time year for me. I don't know how much longer can ride out waiting for increased dose to work. The really dark Thoughts are creeping in I said nothing at doctors this morning other than wanted dose increasing. I just can't see way forward anymore feel so alone.
 
I did the order over again and used my credit card instead even though I didn't want to. The order is placed now. I went on Amazon to see if any orders were pending and showed up nothing so they did cancel it. And checked my bank account and wasn't taken off. What a pain this was.
 
I am feeling totally wrecked today. Just defeated and sad and helpless. Probably a new low for me. My hope has been squashed. :cry: And I'm also just appalled that this is the person I have become. My abuser wins if this is who I've become.

Desperately need some love.
 

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