What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[Meadowsweet]

(((((a hug))))) for all those who would like one today.

I'm feeling relatively balanced today.

 

[KP the nut]

My hands are driving me nuts, itching like mad.

OMG I am so with you on that one and can I add legs and arms as well ;)

 

[KP the nut]

I feel like giving in, I have had enough. I am tired. I haven't done any baking, poor H is back walking the dogs as the cold is affecting me so much.

I am isolating, I am disassociating. I am beating myself up because I haven't done any of the baking I was going to, including the cake. I feel so pathetic and a complete waste of space.

 

[Meadowsweet]

I feel like giving in, I have had enough. I am tired. I haven't done any baking, poor H is back walking the dogs as the cold is affecting me so much.

I am isolating, I am disassociating. I am beating myself up because I haven't done any of the baking I was going to, including the cake. I feel so pathetic and a complete waste of space.

KP, yesterday, when I felt like a failure, your words to me were "You are not a failure. Please try and be kind to yourself, remember, baby steps". Today I am feeling much more grounded and balanced. So you're not a waste of space, you gave me some words that really helped, so I hope you will take those kind words for yourself and give yourself the hug you deserve.

 

[amethist]

KP, as my husband's CPN told him today:-

"You are not going backwards, you are re tracing your steps, to repeat and not forget the steps you have already taken"

Good advice for all at times maybe.

 

[KP the nut]

So you're not a waste of space, you gave me some words that really helped, so I hope you will take those kind words for yourself and give yourself the hug you deserve.

Oh dear, crying now, but nice tears. Thank you. - Still feel cr*p though. I will try. I've had to take off my wedding and engagement rings, which has dragged me down. I suppose the only way is up.

 

[Iam]

. I am beating myself up because I haven't done any of the baking I was going to, including the cake.

(((KP))) I know the feeling Kath. We are "doers" and when we don't do we feel guilty. It's even worse when we just can't do whatever it is we think we need to get done. My T calls this performance anxiety and I realized that what I often thought was depression was in fact this performance anxiety. Not fun, but please, please be kind to yourself. You have come so far and you feeling well more often than not. We are bound to have bad days....even non-PTSDers do.

You are such a sweet, kind, loving person. Man, I know I wouldn't have come as far as I have without your encouragement Kath. Take today for yourself, be kind and gentle with yourself, do something that you enjoy for you, not because it must be done. ((((HUGS))))

 

[Iam]

KP, as my husband's CPN told him today:-

"You are not going backwards, you are re tracing your steps, to repeat and not forget the steps you have already taken"

Good advice for all at times maybe.

That is excellent advice Amethist. Something I know I need to remember at times. Thanks for sharing!

 

[Iam]

Exhausted and major depression. Sleep eludes me. Cannot escape myself. Going down and afraid of the bottom.

(((((PH))))) You are sweet, you are wonderful, you are smart, you are creative, you are a good friend, you are uniquely created, you are an encourager, you are a hardworker and most importantly.....you are loved.

 

[Iam]

((((HUGS)))) to all here.

I am feeling better today.
I know (for today, at this moment) that I get to make my choices. That gives ME the power, not anyone else.
I know that I am the one making choices in everything that I do and what I choose to dwell on. No-one else is.

It's good to be able to recognize that I can pull myself out of the negative feelings faster by changing my thought patterns. The bad days like yesterday still happen. People are human and are going to hurt me at times, but I don't have to let it cause a stormy whirlpool of emotions that suck me down into the pit of despair. It will do that if I choose to focus on how awful I feel. Or I can choose to look at what I have and all of the possibilities that are before me. I am amazed at what happens when I do that!

For today, for this moment.....I am able to be happy. Yesterday is gone and tomorrow (who knows maybe it will be even better!), but for now.....I am here, I have goals, I have possibilities, I am alive and I am.

Today I take Clancy in for his American Kennel Club Good Canine Citizen evaluation. He has to have this in order to start the therapy dog classes. Wish us luck!

 

[alleycat]

panicky, scared, and depressed

 

[MyStarryNight]

anxious, stressed, somewhat excited about the Christmas season, and super excited that I'm regulating my emotions better, completely overwhelmed by everything I'm remembering and really sad about it, happy my husband and I are doing a lot better....