What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[Froggie]

Abandoned,waiting for the follow up care team to ring,psychologist not able to see him til a week on monday,not too happy with me...i'm the enemy just now...

Candle burning for you dear (((((wife of)))))

 

[Froggie]

After reading a post today, it confronted me with a problem that I've dealing with for quite a while. I feel emotionnaly numb, I know that there are things stirring inside of me, but I just rationalize everything. I can't seem to communicate what is going on inside of me, what I'm living. And yet, I know that I'm depressed, angered, tired of hearing people talking about others in such a degrading matter, etc. I've got a project which I can talk to just a few people, anything spiritual is a taboo thing so ... I rather not communicate. I would like to communicate but feel handicapped, handicapped by life, by PTSD, stunned by cancer ... tired of being judged ... Oh lord, I'm isolating... I'm glad that post gave me a good kick in the rear end and make me put what is going on in writing ... I need to re-connect with humans.

 

[Queen Boudica]

Messed up, completely messed up.

 

[Loveneverfails]

((((Lizio))))

 

[Tinyflame]

(((Hugs to all))))
Dear Rain, I know how that feels :(, -xox

 

[Lionheart]

((((Froggie))))

 

[goingonhope]

Today I'm feeling hopeful, enlightened, motivated, successful, sad, disappointed, nervous, courageous, confident, eager, peaceful, pleased, accomplished, afraid, happy to be alive, contentment, somewhat frustrated, somewhat impatient, ...Hopeful!

 

[CaringMomma]

I, also, feel emotionally raw! Such a good word to discribe that feeling. Raw!!! It's like having a wound that keeps getting picked open and it oozes fresh blood all over again and again and again.

I'm on day number 4 of severing all ties with my mom and sister. I'm in pain because they couldn't care any less. For the last 4-5 years I've been treated like :poop:.

First, my sister gets mad at me because she offends me and I don't really want to talk to her because all she wants to do is placate me with pretend concern. Then over the last 4-5 years she has found a plethora of reasons to compound her anger toward me.

Then, my mom with her guilt is feeling even more guilty because I can't seem to just 'let it go'. I'm finally falling apart due to 35 years of neglect and abuse and she just doesn't want anything to do with me because I am a huge reminder of her failure.

I realize that this is the best thing for my future toward healing and freedom, but why does it have to be so painful?

I'm angry, frustrated, anxious, hurt, sad, pathetic, confused, and in need of strength beyond my ability.

This is where I have to enjoy the moment, but how?

I'm raw!

 

[cat]

Until half an hour ago I was calm & relaxed. I've been to the hairdresser, managed to get all I wanted at the shops & was looking forward to seeing my daughter this evening.
And then my daughter rang me....... in a foul mood, she'd had a bad day at work, is pregnant so hormones are all over the place & her husband goes into hospital on saturday for a back operation. I fully understand why she's so het up but....when will she learn that it is incredibly triggering when she shouts at me the way she did. I'm always here & ready to listen to her but dont need her to shout at me.

So now I'm trying to ground myself again, I'll do it but it could be avoided!

 

[Loloma]

Still figuring out about why I block my feelings and have trouble expressing them. Quite simple really, if you don't feel you can't get hurt. The problem is if you block for too long, then let the feeling out it can be too overwhelming to bear.

I'm finding that when asked how do I feel about an issue, I need to go away and reflect for a while. It's easy to write the words, but different to actually feel what the words mean. To me it is an expensive luxury that can leave me devastated and confused. Really I don't want to go there. More than the sadness, the grief is the worst.

It really scares me as the last time I let my feelings out, it was a mountain of molten lava that nearly killed me.

 

[Anna]

I feel nothing :(

 

[CaringMomma]

((((cat, Loloma, Anna))))