What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[Philippa]

I feel really upset. I'm also worried about my parents. I think my father might have died and they cannot get through to me. A part of me wonders why I am even worried about it, since I'm the one who disappeared from their lives and declared him dead to me, but the reality of it possibly having happened, and that I might have missed the funeral is really awful to me. I'm feeling very emotional about this, and it is creating a lot of turmoil inside me, it has for many months now.

Why can't I just be at peace with my decision? It feels wrong even though I know it was the right thing, in my head. I feel like the worst person in the world..and I have to keep reminding myself why I chose this in the first place, and all the examples of the negative, destructive things they have done that have caused me to push them away and create healthier relationships with kinder people who are there for me.

I'm sick of this mental anguish. I felt ashamed earlier, and let myself really feel it. I feel so uncomfortable feeling shame. I feel relieved to have been able to get all this out tonight.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

I am feeling good today. We will go food shopping today and get stocked up once agan. My husband is having terrifying hallucinations but he knws they are hallucinations.

I took him to the doctor yesterday and the doc upped his seroquel to try to help reduce the hallucinations. He is on a small dose.

He is having a good morning which bodes will for us.

 

[message waiting]

After yesterdays flashback, I feel
Scared
Hopeless
Small
Confused
About to have one again

 

[LaurieJ]

I am feeling better today and am crying less.

 

[LaurieJ]

Message Waiting,
Flashbacks are the worst, I know. Please hang in there and know that my thoughts and prayers are with you. You are not alone.
LaurieJ

 

[Lady of Longbourn]

Optimistic. :)

 

[ms spock]

I am feeling so pleased with myself being so competent and capable. I went boogie board this morning and had a nice chat with a guy at the showers. I am tidying up and cleaning up and organising my house. It is great to feel like I am managing.

 

[Philippa]

scared, weak,more at peace though, relaxed and not sure what I will come up with to wear to the pagan party I will be attending in a few hours to honor the God of my choice?

 

[ms spock]

I am feeling like I am managing.

 

[Tanishq]

I am worried.

 

[ms spock]

I am feeling very tired. I am worn out from everything I have done today.

 

[Froggie]

Felt sad saying goodbye to the group of art therapy at the Quebec Cander Foundation as I have been evaluated that I need supplementary services. Will be starting at a new area nest Thursday which will help a great deal with the new injections added to the chemo. Another phase, another acceptation of the evolution of this illness that gets whamoed by the PTSD symptoms - this sometimes gets rough and kleenex moments.