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What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

I felt negative at the start of the day, and now I just feel like crying...but nothing will come out. I feel heart-broken and totally exhausted from work. I have found myself in a workplace that is extremely unhygienic. It's the dirtiest massage place I've ever had the displeasure to stumble into. I need the money though, but I don't want to work at that particular shop. Maybe the other one will be better...but somehow I doubt it if she is cutting corners to the point of not even washing the towels customers lie on...ALL DAY! It's disgusting. I feel so seedy just being there. I feel crappy, confused and unhappy right now. Hope tomorrow is a better day. I'm feeling slightly bitter still about the events that unfolded last friday. Still can't believe that woman got to keep her job and I'm now in a shithole trying to make ends meet. it's really unfair. I had an "I hate everything" day today. Feeling victimized...and hating it.
 
Depressed, isolated and alone, as I started this day, with tears, after being awake for 20 minutes. One of my signs, I am battling depression, once more. Venus had to wake me, up, again, with her kibble breath, this morning, as I would sleep the entire morning, away. No one around me, is seeing the signs of depression, even though, my pattern of activities has curtailed, from what it was, last month.
 
:rolleyes: Mischievous, happy and sore.

My two bosses are out of the office today :cool: I'm going to take care some personal stuff that requires using the phone.
It's sunny and warm outside today. I moved all my furniture this morning :sick: so the carpet clearners could clean :)
I'm looking forward to taking a nice long walk this afternoon, getting my hair cut, and putting all my furniture back in place this p.m. :rolleyes:
 
Depressed. I can't remember when I felt this bad... At least a year ago.

I guess in part it's because I could not give up Effexor. The side effects were so horrible that my psychiatrist told me to start taking it again, and we'll try stopping again when my "external circumstances" change. I believe she's expecting a miracle, because my husband's cancer won't go away on its own, my kids will not feel happy until that happens, and my parents will not stop their emotional abuse until they die...
 
Not sure. It's hard to tell. I'm a bit shocked I think after yesterday. (I challenged my self big time and tagged a long with a friend of mine to her Tai Chi practice. I thought it would be something "gentle" and "soft".. But oh boy was I mistaken!! So I was exposed to so much triggers in 15 minutes that it was ridiculous! ) I had a tough night, and my neck is sore, and I think I'm overwhelmed. But I am proud though that I managed to stay the whole training, despite it all being a bit too much for me. (I think my brain switched on/off at times, but it was so intense that I had no chance at all to think/feel: more than worthless when I couldn't make my arms/hands/legs move the way they were intended to: or some moments at all.)

Yes. Shocked. I feel empty but full at the same time. Not sure it's a good feeling at all. But it's different..
 
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I'm overwhelmed, severely, and haven't even gotten to the hard parts yet. No sleep at all last night. Plans for an afternoon 'talk' with the sweetie about how my depressive isolation has hurt him and then off to my folks' anniversary dinner. Last night mom said not to wear jeans. I've gained weight since I had any reason to dress nice. GAH! If I took my anxiety meds I'd sleep through everything, and the only part that anyone will comprehend is that the rainy day is making me ache.
 

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