What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[zaniara]

Powerlessness: waiting for a person at the state agency to send me my money so that I can pay my rent- but despite being promised to have the money on Monday still no money and no answer to why either- left in uncertainty= full blown panic!!

 

[zaniara]

Should feel relief now: since now I know the money is coming in on Monday. But instead I feel humiliated, overwhelmed with grief and pain, exhausted and so much shame I want to self-destruct. :( (And shame for feeling that. And for being open about it. And for being me.) (Had to humiliate me to get this thing sorted out. As I've done so many times before: humiliated my self in order to survive.. But did it for my kids. They need me to have a home.. Had no choice. Again.)

 

[p-no]

Panicky

 

[digger]

Anxious and unsettled. My son has invited one of his friends over to the house tomorrow. I am also feeling pleased that he didn't feel that he had to check in with me first about it and that I obviously manage to hide this shit well enough around him for it not to occur to him that it might make me feel this way and that he's not worried at all about what his friends might think of me or the house (which needs a fair bit of work at the moment) but I hate having people I don't know in my space! Hell, a lot of the time I hate having people I do know in my space!!

 

[Loloma]

Sorry to hear your not feeling well KP. Please take care, sending you a big:hug:.

When I feel better I'll be back on the forum. Four weeks in total and still recovering. Immune system nose dived, causing one infection after the other. Constantly taking antibiotics to treat them. Weekly check ups by my GP.

How do I feel.... still weak, tired and muscle pain. Every day is a little better thank goodness. Appointment with the endocrinologist next month to sort out my immune system.

 

[ninja]

Goofy. :clown: :hilarious:

 

[Lionheart]

I feel pain from muscle spasms, (but I saw the doctor) and have some medicine being delivered this afternoon.

I feel anxious because we have severe weather forecast for today with the possibility of an isolated tornado. Even 'Trick or Treat' has been cancelled and rescheduled, (here and in several surrounding counties).

The mere thought of a tornado makes me very nervous because I have seen the aftermath one can leave behind and it is not something one easily forgets.:tdown:

 

[Spiderallis]

I've been trying so hard to focus on the happy side of Halloween. It's also the anniversary of a horrible thing, over a decade ago and I'm getting frustrated with myself for letting it bother me.

 

[ms spock]

High anxiety. Woke up at 1am last night.

 

[ms spock]

So highly anxious.

 

[ms spock]

Went to downstairs and saw my neighbour. She asked me how I am and I said I had woke up at 1am having a panic attack. She asked me if I wanted to talk and I said yes. I didn't tell her much but I told her I had a medication change and few of the things that have happened. I am really finding it hard. She just told me stories, funny ones and made me a cup of tea. I didn't want to tell her how bad I am because it is too much. I know that she has had a hard time lately. So a few details and that is all. And it was comforting.[DOUBLEPOST=1383280938][/DOUBLEPOST]Massive panic this morning and this afternoon.

 

[Lionheart]

I feel relieved that the worst of the storms have passed by. :notworthy::tup: I heard three distinct thumps on the roof and know that we will have some fallen tree limbs to clean up tomorrow. There is another line of storms coming soon, but it is not expected to be as intense as this last line of showers.:cool: ...(at least I hope not)

I feel pain in my shoulder, neck, and upper arm from muscle spasms and suppose I will have to take more muscle relaxers before I go to bed for the night.:unsure:

I feel grateful that my anxiety has lessened and depression is not active. :giggle::happy::inlove:

I feel sad as the falling of the leaves brings with it an anniversary of the time when trauma was at it's worst! (Usually I have a mental reaction before the emotional reaction sets in.) :(

Still, I feel happy that I am stronger and better able to handle any flashbacks that may be triggered.;):happy::D