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What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

Well, whatever I have been going through, has caught up with me. I'm feeling very tired, no energy compared to what I was feeling yesterday. I will just take things as they come today, and allow it all to settle as I gain more perspective and clarity about it all.
 
Been feeling so tender and on the verge of tears all day. I feel like I'm not that far off my menses, and after my massage/counselling session yesterday, lots has been stirring up...I've been feeling this pressure building up, and was upset for much of the day...sometimes able to hide it, other times not so much...or maybe I just wanted to hide it and pretending I was, but I know other people around me were aware of my depression, which made me feel self conscious.

Insecure, emptiness, hopeless and fighting off my fathers voice telling me I'm a failure in my head. relieved to be home in my sanctuary, away from the icky energy at work, which I was highly sensitive to today. Unsure what I will do for work when the shop closes down in 2 months? I want to step back from what I am doing and try something more self-honouring.

Warm and snuggly with the cat right now, content to be in his company only.
 
Exhausted! Totally worn out. But really, really good. I lived a good day today. I was a real person and I was in the the real world.[DOUBLEPOST=1404910328,1404910176][/DOUBLEPOST]I am amused. I was doing dog training early this morning. The Red Dog was getting rewards for heeling correctly. The cat decided that she, too, wanted rewards, so she heeled on my right side, as was logical, as the red dog was on my left side. (As I have been working on them improving their behaviour around each other - feeding one treat to one animal then another reward. I really wanted to reinforce sharing food behaviour between the two of them.) I was able to reward each animal whilst they both heeled. It was most amusing. B was rolling around laughing.
 
Shame has been surfacing, and lots of sadness, self-betrayal, deficiency and defeat. Feeling like I'm not alone in this at least, and relief to know others are going through the same thing. I feel f*cked up...but at least I'm honest about it.

I feel better in my body for having expressed and released some emotions that I find hard to sit with. I feel like I've done some good healing work today, despite it being a crap day at work and I wish I could have stayed home in bed curled up under the covers...but I'm here now, and that's something I'm going to indulge in later. :) I feel much lighter in my body.
 

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