Been feeling so tender and on the verge of tears all day. I feel like I'm not that far off my menses, and after my massage/counselling session yesterday, lots has been stirring up...I've been feeling this pressure building up, and was upset for much of the day...sometimes able to hide it, other times not so much...or maybe I just wanted to hide it and pretending I was, but I know other people around me were aware of my depression, which made me feel self conscious.
Insecure, emptiness, hopeless and fighting off my fathers voice telling me I'm a failure in my head. relieved to be home in my sanctuary, away from the icky energy at work, which I was highly sensitive to today. Unsure what I will do for work when the shop closes down in 2 months? I want to step back from what I am doing and try something more self-honouring.
Warm and snuggly with the cat right now, content to be in his company only.