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I think it's best to say the things you no longer avoid rather than what you're still avoiding, acknowledge that some progress has been made. I no longer avoid crowds (as much), buses, school corridors, blue coats, the outside world (working on that one, comes n goes)
Apparently I also avoid false accolades and being put into dysfunction cuz I just put my foot hard on somebody's adams apple yesterday (but they turned around and offered me a carrot on a stick/promotion already to which I said uh. um okay uh thanks loosely) and I DONT WANT a promotion. Eh no thank you you all suck and soon as my mom is out you all are burnt toast. Cuz I will pursue this.
I avoid social interactions when I have to attend to business matters.
I need to talk to my landlord. I need to let them know sis has gone to a nursing home and ask about new people possibly moving in. I fear their reaction to the news and so I am avoiding making the phone call. Also, I am one month behind in my rent and I don't want to make waves. They seem to be nice people, tho' I haven't really had to deal with them directly before.
I will make the call but I will probably postpone it until I have to do it and that bothers me. I wish I would not let my anxiety dictate my behavior, it is a struggle that I will eventually win, but I will continue to be uncomfortable until I take action.
I avoid people. I avoid leaving the property. I avoid relationships except for a few online ones. I avoid therapy, I avoid the doctor, I'm avoiding my Pdoc. I am a loner by choice, but this is over and above. I usually have a few friends, but I don't even have that! Hmm.
Right now I’m putting myself in full avoidance mode. I don’t want to do anything unless I have to, so school and work. I love work so I don’t mind that. But every social interaction lately I end up feeling horrible during and afterwards and I’m done. I need to give that up for a bit. I can’t go out bc I have panic attacks constantly.
What do you avoid in your life?
feeling needy, thinking too deeply about my trauma, perceived unauthentic people, commitment in many forms
What do you no longer avoid?
assessments, socialization, restaurants, stores, connection, telling my truth, working on healing, being more honest with myself, help