What Have You Accomplished Lately?

[Ronin]

Funny games.

Now I need to also accomplish coping.

 

[Rose White]

I called my uncle the CPA today to give him my new address. Talking to him triggers me hugely, the warmth and kindness that I remember in his voice has changed to icy chill. He is still offering to do my taxes so his actions outweigh his tone. I can imagine that it’s not easy for him either. I am just glad I got through it. And I did it at work to have immediate distractions afterward.

 

[Tornadic Thoughts]

I finally cleared off the table that was very well hidden under loads of paperwork from the estate stuff needing to be filed. Found the file box, labeled folders, and got busy getting it in chronological order, with lots of sobbing breaks in between.

Didn't take long to accomplish the task, but sure seemed like it took forever to find the gumption to do it. I guess deep inside it felt like once I finished it, it would just be one more step validating the depth of the loss I feel. There's some things that a sense of order simply can't soothe.

 

[Tornadic Thoughts]

I "re-accomplished" doing paper work that I had already completed months ago and thought I was done with. However, I apparently checked an incorrect box, (the same box I'd been carefully advised by two different professionals I consulted with to be sure to check...grrrr..) making it necessary to have to go back and re-do all of it, have it notarized again, and mail it in again. Fingers crossed for accuracy this time, as I imagine mom shaking her head and laughing at the ongoing absurdities.

So many learning opportunities, so little patience with so many professionals I've dealt with. In multiple scenarios I've ended up doing more research and work than it seems they have, but they're the ones getting paid for supposedly already knowing it well and thoroughly. They're beginning to remind me a lot of meteorologists, being as how they rarely have to be right, but still get paid.

 

[Tornadic Thoughts]

I used a steel post driver today to put posts in the ground around the raised beds for extra support (with the hubby doing most of them, but for me to have done any at all was pretty significant), and to have something to use to fence them off easier when the wildlife begin to use them as a buffet option. I also shoveled compost and raked it into place in the raised beds, then hauled the watering cans all over to water the babies.

I may not be able to move very well tomorrow as a result of my enthusiasm today, lol, but I'm so f'n happy to be able to be more comfortably mobile, and even lift the gardening and other tools much less use them for any length of time, after having been so down and out for so long several years ago - and being told to just get used to it because that's what aging is going to be like.

May this old meat coated skeleton have even more spunk and gumption as the days and years go by, in between making time to rest, nurture, hydrate, and soak in hot salt baths to recoup and regroup. ❤ Thank you, Spring, for breathing new life into this weary soul.

 

[NatBird]

- despite not feeling good enough, going ahead, doing the research and development for a creative project:)

 

[Ronin]

f*ckall and cooking stews. :smug:

 

[Deanna]

The usual, I'm turning the house upside down and cleaning.

 

[ChildofGod]

Getting honest with myself and my past. It's very insightful and helpful, albeit painful too.

 

[Rani G2]

The ability to go into partial self-hibernation/ non toxic detachment in order to walk through. A lazy rebel

 

[ms spock]

Stepped up to the plate and done things I didn't think I could have done.
Been brave.
Choosing not to dissociate as much.
Being brave.
I have changed so much as a person it is incredible.

 

[Tornadic Thoughts]

When we start various seedlings and have more than one take off and grow well, the hubby usually just cuts the extras back and lets the strongest ones grow. I always think about trying to separate them, but never took the initiative to do so, and rather just ate the extras as micro greens on top of a salad or in a smoothie.

However, with the food situation being what it is right now during such major uncertainty, I decided to go ahead and try to split and pot them up in hopes they'll grow. I ended up with 11 extra cherry and 5 extra full sized tomato plants, so far, if they all make it. Here's hoping they thrive so I can share potential homegrown vittles with others who want to grow them, too.