What Is On Your Mind Right This Second?

[Captain Barnacles]

Nononononono.

 

[Alex1312]

...mine is my therapy session tomorrow... I almost don't wanna go.

Hi. I just want to tellyou are not alone. Often I suffer worst anxiety and flashbacks when I have an impending session upcoming with my Psychologist. Once I get there I am always fine and am glad I went but the apprehension sometimes beforehand, not all the time, can be overwhelming. Good luck and make the effort to go no matter how you feel you will feel much better afterwards.

 

[Teasel]

My sleeves are too short

 

[Friday]

My sleeves are too short

Ribbon fixes that. Or scissors!

 

[Teasel]

Ribbon fixes that

How so? Stitching ribbon on the ends? I don't think I'd like the texture. Ta tho

 

[Captain Barnacles]

Looking at the state of my wrist, I think the phlebotomist just used a plastic straw.

 

[Friday]

How so? Stitching ribbon on the ends? I don't think I'd like the texture. Ta tho

Yep, yep!

Toooootally get you on the texture piece. I wear camisoles or skins/underarmor under everything to avoid multiple types of fabric touching/pulling on me, to create a uniform background for my mind to relax against.

Both my son & I have mad sensory issues… but he wins the prize for NO! when he ripped off the jumper he’d just put on exclaiming with disgust “It’s. Made. Of. EYELASHES.” His face twisted in a combo of horror-rage-insult that had me on the floor laughing so hard, even he started laughing… once he realized I wasn’t laughing at him. We burned the jumper, with a little faux-funeral, where instead of extolling its virtues and lamenting how we’d miss it, decrying its failures & the insanity of its makers & its usefulness to torment sufferers in hell. Where it was surely going.

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Being 6feet/185cm tall… anything (shirts/trousers) I don’t buy bespoke (or buy men’s and have it altered for curves) is too short. So I use a lot of 10cm and wider ribbons to bridge the gap, if I can’t just shove the sleeves up. Some fancy/contrasting like Chinese/Japanese/Indian silk or satin, some invisible (like adding a French cuff in place of the cuff it came with), others (for the black side of my wardrobe) just black satin ribbon.

The nice thing about ribbon is that it actually removes the seam -of the original hem- by sewing it upside down, into the sleeve, and then folding it over. As well as the fact that it’s already hemmed, saving the time/expense of hemming & backing.

Sometimes, though, I will have the local fabric shop or tailor/seamstress either make me ribbons, by hemming/backing a fave fabric with something soft/smooth… or put a lovely backing on existing/rough ribbons (like beautiful embroidery that would feel like wearing sand paper, or dressing in nettles). But it takes a special piece to make it worth the time & money. TBH, the least expensive option is usually to just start out with bespoke to begin with.

LeSigh! Clothes. Such frustrating creatures.

 

[Teasel]

It’s. Made. Of. EYELASHES.”

Made me roar

I use cashmere wrist warmers in winter. I could imagine tubes of jersey fabric like the ends of a long sleeve T would be good for me. Would be easy enough to make too.

Mind you my to do list is choc full of so many things that should be pretty simple to do

 

[SeekingAfrica]

I felt okay for like 30sec and allowed myself to have a chill day and plan more than 3 days ahead for a first time in a while, and trust that things are falling in place...and they didn't. And now I feel stupid that I felt safe for a moment. Gotta start over tomorrow and I feel awful.

 

[Captain Barnacles]

I felt okay for like 30sec and allowed myself to have a chill day and plan more than 3 days ahead for a first time in a while, and trust that things are falling in place...and they didn't. And now I feel stupid that I felt safe for a moment. Gotta start over tomorrow and I feel awful.

That's always the way, isn't it?

I woke up on Monday feeling calm and it took until 1030 for absolute disaster to catch up with me. It's impossible to feel like it isn't targeted.

 

[SeekingAfrica]

That's always the way, isn't it?

I woke up on Monday feeling calm and it took until 1030 for absolute disaster to catch up with me. It's impossible to feel like it isn't targeted.

Yeah... it's kind of been that way for a long time. Usually it's some period in time and then there is lighter period when things are seemingly better for a while. Except now it's been a while, like year and a half to 2 years of things just being relentless. It's exhausting.

 

[Friday]

And now I feel stupid that I felt safe for a moment. Gotta start over tomorrow and I feel awful.

Would feeling awful yesterday have helped?

Seems like feeling good yesterday -regardless as to why you felt good- actually let you get some shit done. It seems like MORE of that would be better, rather than beating yourself up about it.