Givrali
MyPTSD Pro
All this years i was f*ckink mysleft up. I'm such a dumbass
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SeekingAfrica
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I hate when m9vies are misrepresented.started watching something that was sort of promoted like a love triangle between soldier and his wife and brother. Turned out it was more about the PTSD of said soldier from what he experienced and the gap between him and his family when he came back. And I'm not a soldier but brutal PTSD after coming home from being far away and experiencing horrible life-altering things, that I know perfectly well. And it was brutal.
SeekingAfrica
MyPTSD Pro
Depression is weird. Feel like I just woke up a bit today and answered 5 messages from friends in half hour instead of barely getting to one a day and that feels like something 
mszl
MyPTSD Pro
That I already see mental patterns in me, that led me to lose previous job and it sucks.
Friday
Moderator
Too many things.
SeekingAfrica
MyPTSD Pro
I get that. I analyze things too. Being self aware can be hard.
I know it doesn't always work from the first try, but still if you see a pattern, sooner or later you can change it possibly. I have changed some of mine. Then again, not really others so who knows...
I hope this is a start of positive change for you :)
Hope2
Confident
Feeling stuck and hopeless. When I was young I would see myself as a good father with wife and many kids. I’m 42 now and will probably never experience what it’s to have my own family with kids. So many years has been spent of being hypervigilant and see fear in everything.
SeekingAfrica
MyPTSD Pro
Productive evening. First in a while. I'm reeling in that feeling 
, I missed it.
, I missed it.Captain Barnacles
Learning
I was hospitalised last night with severe breathing difficulties.
I sent my BFF a fairly typical, lighthearted WhatsApp message about what a pest it was, then got wheeled into a bit of the hospital with no reception where I spent the next five hours.
When I came out I got hit with a backlog of frightened messages and missed calls.
I feel bad for scaring her. But also good, because she cares about me enough to worry. But also bad for feeling good about that.
Yay. Emotions.
I sent my BFF a fairly typical, lighthearted WhatsApp message about what a pest it was, then got wheeled into a bit of the hospital with no reception where I spent the next five hours.
When I came out I got hit with a backlog of frightened messages and missed calls.
I feel bad for scaring her. But also good, because she cares about me enough to worry. But also bad for feeling good about that.
Yay. Emotions.
Givrali
MyPTSD Pro
f*ck f*ck f*ck
SeekingAfrica
MyPTSD Pro
@Givrali
I can relate. I feel things were so hard I'm at a point where I had to be happy of small progress or I would lose my mind.
However due to all that I'm finding myself forgetting deadlines, having so overflowing drive that my email can be shut down if I don't clean it out, forgetting important things like bank deadlines or phone prepaid plan deadline so it doesn't get shut down and it's just getting messed up. Like there is too much to do that if I try to fix it all it's suffocating but if I Don't I take care of one thing and then suddenly 3 unexpected issues hit me up (like the email part- from it being a side problem it went to a huge problem all at once, email is important for job applications obviously and I let it get out of hand). Concerning.
I need to reign in all the chaos happening.
I can relate. I feel things were so hard I'm at a point where I had to be happy of small progress or I would lose my mind.
However due to all that I'm finding myself forgetting deadlines, having so overflowing drive that my email can be shut down if I don't clean it out, forgetting important things like bank deadlines or phone prepaid plan deadline so it doesn't get shut down and it's just getting messed up. Like there is too much to do that if I try to fix it all it's suffocating but if I Don't I take care of one thing and then suddenly 3 unexpected issues hit me up (like the email part- from it being a side problem it went to a huge problem all at once, email is important for job applications obviously and I let it get out of hand). Concerning.
I need to reign in all the chaos happening.
parrotthepolly
Learning
My stomach hurts but at least it distracts me from my problems temporarily haha
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