What Is On Your Mind Right This Second?

[Rose White]

What is it that you want that you will not get?

Wholeness, integration, understanding, love… I will get glimpses and can approach these things but they will never stay or be assured. But it is the same for all humans.

 

[Applecore]

it is the same for all humans.

This right here helps us all.

 

[parrotthepolly]

Coconut water has 200 calories per litre.

That's 50 calories per 250mL

Well that's friggin neat!

 

[Applecore]

Coconut water has 200 calories per litre.

That's 50 calories per 250mL

Well that's friggin neat!

No booze and hardly any added sugar for six weeks, for the first time in years, plus a 3 mile jog instead of a 2 mile job every two days. Lost about 5 kilos already. Stressful weekend triggered fantasies of moist chocolate cake with big heavy red wine. But fought through it, replaced with 0% beer, fruit and ping pong.

 

[parrotthepolly]

No booze and hardly any added sugar for six weeks, for the first time in years, plus a 3 mile jog instead of a 2 mile job every two days. Lost about 5 kilos already. Stressful weekend triggered fantasies of moist chocolate cake with big heavy red wine. But fought through it, replaced with 0% beer, fruit and ping pong.

I don't give a crap about what you do so stay the actual Hell away from me !!!

 

[PlainJane]

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[Applecore]

Mod Note
@parrotthepolly, respectfully, you are replying to a public forum and realistically need to expect responses. Quit being disruptive or you will lose privledges on the forum. You have the option to ignore responses and members you perfer not to read, with the exception to stafff. Take that option. Take what is helpful, leave the rest.

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Thank you

Please, continue with the thread "What is on your mind right this second."

No idea if they were joking or not, but thanks all the same... For the record, I was disclosing that red wine and cake are on my mind, probably because I abused both for most of my life!

 

[8888]

Worrying this dark cloud of depression won’t go away

 

[Dark.Green.Feathers]

female-on-male (sexual) abuse has a lot to do with making you an unwilling participant in what they're doing to you. They’re not just doing whatever they want to you, but by the nature of it, often they're also making you… physically involved, which can be the enabling gateway to the abuse act itself, which is partly why it’s so confusing, and difficult to get your head around properly.

If some of what happens depends on what my body is up to, then, hm… tough stuff.

 

[user27357]

I am thinking about how hard hard work leaves me feeling better most of the time. 10 hours of digging trenches, plumbing, lifting pulling pushing driving and climbing on and off of tractors and hoes and ditch diggers about a thousand times (more like fifty) leaves me exhausted but in a good frame of mind and pretty good spirits. Why doesn't lifting weights or doing calisthenics get me here? Maybe when work has to be done it doesn't feel like work, while sweating with no outcome other than being sweaty just doesn't make it happen. I'd rather go for a long walk on a beach or through the woods but the labor that brought me this good feeling would be equivalent to about 20 hours of walking, maybe more. Dont know, dont care, I will wish I had spent more time exercising when I am dieing someday but probably not until then if I get a chance to think about it at all when it comes.

 

[WinnieThePoohChris]

female-on-male (sexual) abuse has a lot to do with making you an unwilling participant in what they're doing to you. They’re not just doing whatever they want to you, but by the nature of it, often they're also making you… physically involved, which can be the enabling gateway to the abuse act itself, which is partly why it’s so confusing, and difficult to get your head around properly.

If some of what happens depends on what my body is up to, then, hm… tough stuff.

That just clicked and made some things clearer. Thank you.

 

[HomelessJoe]

The president said he was going to get rid of all the people like me. So what has been on my mind non stop ever since. Where are we being taken? When are they coming for me? Was everything I've done over the years just a waste of time? He made me homeless with his housing bill years ago. After years of struggling to get housing. He took away my right to travel to where I have housing. Now he is taking away my right to exist. I've been extremely paranoid the past few weeks. Racing a clock to the right to sleep indoors and they control the time. Driving me crazy would be a understatement. My PTSD has actually taken a backseat for a change.