What Is On Your Mind Right This Second?

[Muttly]

@Tinyflame Ugh. Sorry you are doing that.

I need to eat. I wish feeding this body wasn't so freaking hard. What am I going to eat. Yeah, yeah, I feel too tired to bother with getting food but that's part of the problem. Go eat. heh.

 

[Tinyflame]

Thank you @Muttly, and @Ronin. .
Thankful to God (and, quite literally the Blessed Virgin Mary) that,worst situation didn't transpire. :notworthy: And to friend for prayers, sister and partner for assistance, hopefully contractor too to be both correct and good to their word.

@Ronin , after being through situation twice in lifetime, you have to stand and defend if you have no help. First time it was trapped/ stand and defend, 2nd was no other thought. Because you know how profound the consequences will be, and there will be no help after. I suppose it would be different if there were physical resources or financial. But I understand why people do stand and defend, completely. But it's not really a choice. It's the cliff or the grizzly.

But thank you very much. :hug::inlove:

 

[NatBird]

Being a useless worthless ugly piece of shit who f*cks it all up and can't get her shit together

Critic?

 

[NatBird]

Also thinking...

If I had been ran over in the street would people be asking me whether I got the number plate, expecting me to call the ambulance and police, to tuck my spilled innards in, get up and chase after justice

I am thinking about the guilt I feel about feeling f*cked up, hurt, injured, still looking at the wound thinking, what the f*ck

I am thinking about how there seems to be a shelf life on this process, and if you go beyond it you're a 'victim'


I am thinking I really don't like this word. I
find it minimising, undermining, pathologising and representative of individualism

I am thinking I much prefer some de colonising definitions, 'people who have caused extreme harm/hurt' , 'people who have experienced extreme harm/hurt'. I am thinking to be addressed like this would allow me to feel like a human again and that it is okay to be in this process. Afterall, it has only been seven weeks since the assault

I am thinking I should put this in my diary

 

[ChildofGod]

it's necessary to have fun and to laugh/smile.

 

[Ronin]

Dinner & spaced out half of groceries. :hilarious:

 

[Tornadic Thoughts]

Shift happens.

 

[Rani G2]

When I say Sorry shouldnt I mean it? What are all these sorries/ love you's praise..? Who is inauthentic?
Do I want to have a friendship with someone who is permanently unclear, backs off from her position? If its coping then let me know..make yourself clear.

 

[Lucycat]

It is ten years since my cousin's father died. His funeral was the day she shared with her sister that her uncle had sexually abused her. My father. Ten years.....

 

[Rani G2]

She said, „if you meditate and cleanse your chakras you will not be harmed, you will not not be confronted with Negativity. As an Empath I know“
It’s interesting how people convince themselves with these belief‘s.

 

[Mach123]

Coffee, sex, church which I'm not going because of everything else. I've been running it all over in my mind since 3:30. It's 7am.

 

[Rani G2]

Class meeting: I not know of high consciousness,Oneness, Love for all humans.
I Do get basic needs...
When reality comes at ya.... who is there?