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I think once you truly love someone that’s it. Things change but true love really never dies. It changes form though
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What Is On Your Mind Right This Second?
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SophieBernstein
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Let's read something to overcome the urge of getting drunk
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Is it worth it?
If not?
What works better? Or works at all? Do that. Or not.
The decision is the important thing, IMO. Followed very closely by owning that decision.
Freddyt
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Amen sister.....(not that I'm that religious....just kinda like Paul Newman's character in The Color of Money, I get high on the man upstairs.....)
That's on my mind too - because my T lit up like a Christmas Tree when I showed her my golf notebook yesterday.
Most people don't understand - you gotta believe you are before you can become. Just ask your T.......
But me - I can assess and control my everyday anxiety - I know I read it somewhere today.....
Was a weird day.
Maybe I'm too tired, but thinking about it, I don't think I can go through with tomorrow's plans, even if they are for my benefit. I'd rather be anonymous. Maybe it's me thinking too much or remembering the wrong things, but logically it seems crazy to forget them entirely, too when I'm reminded. It's one extreme or the other, trust or avoid. I don't feel confident it's the right decision, time to protect my own self and feelings and dignity. That's sensible I think. Best I can find for words. What would my dad say? Idk but partly, and it is Father's Day. I think one thing is for sure it's reminded me to turn in towards myself. Was difficult to share my thoughts in the 1st place. it doesn't matter. It's incidental.
ETA, I guess it comes down to I don't understand. And therefore the only reasonable thing to do is assume the worst/ negative. Seems reasonable. That's what hurt the most. I can take being told to go, it's clear. Can't stand having to go anywhere or with anyone where I'm not welcome.
Maybe I'm too tired, but thinking about it, I don't think I can go through with tomorrow's plans, even if they are for my benefit. I'd rather be anonymous. Maybe it's me thinking too much or remembering the wrong things, but logically it seems crazy to forget them entirely, too when I'm reminded. It's one extreme or the other, trust or avoid. I don't feel confident it's the right decision, time to protect my own self and feelings and dignity. That's sensible I think. Best I can find for words. What would my dad say? Idk but partly, and it is Father's Day. I think one thing is for sure it's reminded me to turn in towards myself. Was difficult to share my thoughts in the 1st place. it doesn't matter. It's incidental.
ETA, I guess it comes down to I don't understand. And therefore the only reasonable thing to do is assume the worst/ negative. Seems reasonable. That's what hurt the most. I can take being told to go, it's clear. Can't stand having to go anywhere or with anyone where I'm not welcome.
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I saw your name @Lionheart !!! I hope you are recovering well!!! Missed you and gentle hugs for you!! 
How are you feeling? i will come back to check!
How are you feeling? i will come back to check!
Lionheart
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I am, thank you. The surgery was very successful according to my surgeon. I am healing
Thank you so much, tiny flames as necessary.Missed you and gentle hugs for you!!
I am tired, but healing well. The surgeon said it all went smoothly. I am very sleepy as of right now but the pain is being controlled. We will talk again soon.How are you feeling? i will come back to check!
I think my dad had a lot of difficulty expressing how he felt verbally. He was a big man with a very gentle heart, a ferocious temper not often seen, and I would say fair. Definitely brave, including risking his life for other's safety, or dropping everything on the spot when someone was in distress. But he was sober my whole life, just after I was born. Made light of life always through humor, usually self-deprecating. Worried a lot and expected the worst. He was deeply repentant of what he put my mom through. He was a very traumatized person, beginning as a small child.
Lionheart
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I am just thinking of how grateful I am for my many blessings, my daughter, the people that I love and care about, my improving health, the good times I have known, and the many times I sat in a circle with family members blazing a big ol "J" and listening to music and laughing about this thing and that. We have shared so many memories I truly hope that when I die I will be reunited with my family. That's what's on my mind right now.
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The bizarre sexism in my family.
My mom gets table saws & similar for holidays. My grandmother built 2 houses from scratch (one with her family, one with her husband and kids). One of my aunts is an engineer. Most of us girls have worked in construction, at one time or another, and many of us have renovated old houses. So you’d think women-fixing-shit? Normal.
Nope.
Only the SONS & GRANDSONS are “allowed” to do any home repairs at my parents house. Even if it’s their damn daughter who taught them how to do it. >.< They’d also rather pay a -male- stranger 10k to do something, than just pay me the cost of materials (1500).
If it were that I, and the other girls, were incompetent? Or disinterested? It would at least make sense. But noooooo. All of us who have worked construction can’t actually be “trusted”, whilst the boys who have never done XYZ before are given total trust & open lines of credit.
The “broken” fridge? Just needs a valve unscrewed, the ice buildup rinsed out, replace the valve, and voila. Only 10 minutes worth of work IF you also take the opportunity to wash the floor. Otherwise? 2 minutes.
They’d rather empty the fridge and spend $2500, or call my brother to fix it.
Fine.
I’m going outside. To drink tea and look pretty.
My mom gets table saws & similar for holidays. My grandmother built 2 houses from scratch (one with her family, one with her husband and kids). One of my aunts is an engineer. Most of us girls have worked in construction, at one time or another, and many of us have renovated old houses. So you’d think women-fixing-shit? Normal.
Nope.
Only the SONS & GRANDSONS are “allowed” to do any home repairs at my parents house. Even if it’s their damn daughter who taught them how to do it. >.< They’d also rather pay a -male- stranger 10k to do something, than just pay me the cost of materials (1500).
If it were that I, and the other girls, were incompetent? Or disinterested? It would at least make sense. But noooooo. All of us who have worked construction can’t actually be “trusted”, whilst the boys who have never done XYZ before are given total trust & open lines of credit.
The “broken” fridge? Just needs a valve unscrewed, the ice buildup rinsed out, replace the valve, and voila. Only 10 minutes worth of work IF you also take the opportunity to wash the floor. Otherwise? 2 minutes.
They’d rather empty the fridge and spend $2500, or call my brother to fix it.
Fine.
I’m going outside. To drink tea and look pretty.
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