What Is On Your Mind Right This Second?

[Paladin_141]

I picked up a pack of sleeping tablets (diphenhydramine hydrochloride) because I'm exhausted and still on alert five status all the damned time.

Now I'm sitting and staring at the box lime it is a gigantic, venomous spider.

I feel distinctly unsafe, now, because I know damned well that I'm one more bit of bad news away from going full Cookie Monster on the bloody things.

 

[In the weeds]

Wondering why my brother knew he was dieing and choose not to tell anyone.

 

[Paladin_141]

They called us 'Ghosts' over there. Certainly f*cking feel like one.

 

[Grasping Hope]

Utterly blank. Hey, I've discovered a new meditation technique. Have someone ask you to define what you're thinking, then realize you're thinking nothing at all.

 

[ms spock]

Despair

 

[Dynamic]

Fav breakfast right now is rice cooker rice, jasmine, then Atlantic hot salmon w soy sauce

 

[Paladin_141]

Drone Girl just let slip in our chat that she's suicidal.

I told her to come back to the war with me. I can keep an eye on her there. Better to be with people who understand.

If needs be, it's better to face death on your feet and surrounded by friends, rather than sobbing in a little ball in the darkness if your bedroom, alone and forgotten.

She deserves better than that. We all do.

 

[Dynamic]

I pray the power stays on bc I already live in the woods and Id like to be warm

 

[Dynamic]

i wonder if anyone wants a workout / cleaning social post bc I am restarting working out and spring cleaning. I have a few apps that help m with all this but I find Iwann talk about my struggles within that related to illness but in a talking post

 

[Paladin_141]

After her less-than-subtle hints about her mood during our last conversation and her prolonged silence, I am increasingly concerned the Drone Girl has rage quit life.
'Distraught' doesn't quite cover the state I am in just now.

 

[Rose White]

I’m thinking how this condition will never go away forever and I won’t get better. It will keep coming back in new ways and forms. I will change, I will try to adapt, I will forget sometimes. Good things will still happen in my life, I will feel joy despite it all. But I will not heal from it. This is not a wound or an injury. It’s just the structure of my life. Death is a kind of relief. Hopefully. None of this undead stuff please. Even though death will hopefully be relief it doesn’t mean I’m not grateful for the life I’m given and the relationships that are meaningful.

 

[RVA21]

I'm lucky to be alive and happy to be alive.

Also, I'm glad I never climbed any munros and I have no intentions to ever do so.