I was shopping in a very small store with only one clerk and myself inside. It felt natural and I was ok then the clerk told me that she had cpstd just out of the blue. She was telling me about her experiences which were similar to mine while under captivity. I listened, I thought, patiently and at the first break I asked if she knew of this website. She shook her head no and continued on. Another shopper came in so I tried to calm her down but that seemed to fuel the fire. Her eyes turned black and her face was scrunched up as she followed me around the store. I saw the other shopper was not moving with his back to us. She was in a near rage by then. I managed to sidestep out of the store to my car where I sat in shock for a while.
I felt like I had been beaten. The darkness had taken over her eyes and it was frightening. Her aggressive physical movements toward me! What would happen if the other shopper wasn’t there?!!
It happened to me so I had to think about it. What did it mean?
The similarity of abuse. How did she know?
The “evil-look”- did I do that not realizing it back when I first discovered my cpst?
Did I scare people too?
What is it I’m to learn about this?
Yes I probably scared someone.
Yes my fear, anger probably turned my eyes black.
I really don’t recall, thus I say probably.
Yes I know that the more I would “lose it “ in public the more I would do it.
I’m in so much better place now than back then but this was quite the reminder of
What it Looks Like
Probably wrong forum..
I felt like I had been beaten. The darkness had taken over her eyes and it was frightening. Her aggressive physical movements toward me! What would happen if the other shopper wasn’t there?!!
It happened to me so I had to think about it. What did it mean?
The similarity of abuse. How did she know?
The “evil-look”- did I do that not realizing it back when I first discovered my cpst?
Did I scare people too?
What is it I’m to learn about this?
Yes I probably scared someone.
Yes my fear, anger probably turned my eyes black.
I really don’t recall, thus I say probably.
Yes I know that the more I would “lose it “ in public the more I would do it.
I’m in so much better place now than back then but this was quite the reminder of
What it Looks Like
Probably wrong forum..