What Kind Of Ptsd Do You Have?

[Me Myself and I]

I just came to the conclusion of me having a lot of issues!

So my PTSD as been told is a mixture of a lot of things, such as seizures, paranoia, anxiety, stress, some sort of depression and so on.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

I have the occasional weird dreams and nightmares. I have alot of anxiety. I feel depressed and down. I try to fight the symptoms. I have a driving phobia I am overcoming. I have troubles doing things sometimes.

 

[Pinkcake]

Depression, nightmares, anxiety, insomnia and overwhelming sadness. Extreme fear that mom will die, extreme fear that my son will be hurt if I'm not with him.

 

[Abstract]

What a question! :confused:

Photographs, visual and sensory flashbacks, occasional full flashbacks, freezes, random distressing states, nightmares which sometimes follow me into awake time, inability to do physical things at times (make sound, use hand or legs), dissociative trance and other related stuff such as out of body experiences etc, insomnia, obsessive thoughts, paranoia. And a whole lot of other things I can't talk about.

I am immeasurably better with depression and managing it as well as managing anxiety and avoiding/dealing with panic states. I am also hugely better at managing self blame and shame and managing relationships and staying safe.

I am appallingly bad at denial and crazy thoughts connected to that. Essentially I think my first paragraph is a lie!:O_o:

 

[DharmaGirl]

Depression, nightmares, flashbacks, dissociation, freezing, insomnia, paranoia, out of control startle reflex.

 

[Powder]

Same as Abstract except flashbacks are all partials/fragmented. Same as Monster in general terms. Like Abstract, I retract myself more often than I like in all areas of life. I pull back and away from everything. It's all contaminating somehow, life or me living life. It always seems to be extrinsic though. However, obviously, it can't all be external.

Noticed lately a pattern of losing control of left arm and hand when triggered suddenly. It either goes numb and I drop stuff or can't move it, or the arm moves on its own as though controlled by something else, usually defensively when I'm not really threatened by must feel some sort of threat somehow. ??? Huge disconnect. Fear states seem to operate in their own mind in my body. How can that not confuse? Of course I would want to retract, in order to make sense of the chaos.

 

[who am i kim]

Disassociation huge problem for me, nightmares, memory loss - lost my past history- example= my children growing up, anxiety out of control , stress, avoidance big time , triggers, bad startle reflex, fears, anti social, deep depression, deep sadness, crying, making sure that i am not in trouble, in denial, paranoia

 

[anni]

The Really Annoying kind.

 

[rightkindofme]

"the really annoying kind". perfect.

I have flashbacks, intrusive voices (I'm not schizo--they are just memories playing loudly on loop tapes in my head), a ridiculous amount of anxiety, difficulty sleeping, my startle response is such that I hit people as hard as I can when they surprise me. That's not a great response. But actually it was when I was a kid.

I have the kind of PTSD where I was locked in rooms alone as a child and not properly taught how to "socialize" or mix with people. I have severe social phobias and difficulty keeping to "appropriate" topics. Rape and incest and beatings and violence are just common conversation topics for me. I freak people out.

I feel like I deal with my PTSD by deciding there are times when I can and can't display symptoms. I can only "mask" them if I am getting enough rest and time off to go freak out in private. When I am rested I can "look normal" because I have spent a long time specifically rehearsing (in front of a mirror) what facial expressions, tone of voice, and words I am allowed to use with other people so that I am not attacked again.

I am "paranoid" only is it paranoia if it actually happens to you over and over? I don't know. No one has beaten me up in a few years. I'm supposed to just act like it never happened. Now everything is *fine*.... right?

Only I'm not fine. I'm broken.

 

[Lionheart]

I have the disabling kind of PTSD, (X approx. 13 years). I am a survivor of severe, prolonged child abuse. I have all sorts of flashbacks, intrusive thoughts and images, hypervigilence, learned helplessness, overactive startle response, disturbing nightmares, panic attacks, etc, ...and major depression so severe that on the Beck Depression Inventory, my score was 'off the charts'.

However, I have also been in therapy and on medication management for about the same length of time, although I was first diagnosed 23 years ago. (I also struggle with CFS/FMS, COPD, and SAD).

 

[Hashi]

I used to have a very bad startle response, nightmares and flashbacks. Hallucinations were the worst. Thankfully, none of those now.

Now I'm working on depression, anxiety, OCD, anger and shame. I don't feel shame because of blaming myself, but because I feel that what happened makes me disgusting even though it wasn't my fault. It's great.

I used to have panic attacks with something relating to one trauma. Now it's down to bad anxiety. I still avoid that particular thing.

I've spent my whole life dissociated to some extent. It's hard to stay present with things now.

 

[rightkindofme]

*hug* Lionheart