What Made You Angry Today?

[Definitely..maybe]

Having to relive my trauma through nightmares and flashbacks.

 

[ms spock]

I am angry that being in my house makes me dissociate but I am doing better with that.

 

[ms spock]

How much work I have to do.

 

[ms spock]

The child sexual abuse in Australia institutions make me angry, very angry indeed.

 

[ms spock]

The multiple levels of anxiety and panic I dealt with today. The attacks were quite strong. I felt angry at having so much of it.

 

[BlackbirdSinging]

It was last night but my mom made me angry when I was expressing anger that I was already feeling about something else. She started yelling at me held up her hand and told me to stop talking. She said she didn't want to hear it anymore continued to yell at me in front of my nephew and his father and told me to "stop trying to sound like a martyr".

Then in middle of the night my dad and I were both up and he sat me down to asked me to please be rational today. That made me mad too. Because I hadn't been irrational until my mom said all that. I feel like I'm not able to express my emotions without it becoming some kind of a big deal.

 

[ms spock]

I am angry at how bad I feel and how much I feel bad.

 

[Lionheart]

What made me angry today is reading about abuse trauma. To tell the truth it pisses me off to know that so many people have endured sexual child abuse at the hands of adults that should have protected them!!! I want to gather up their perpetrators and have 5 minutes alone with them. Grrrrrrrr!!!! :mad::mad::mad:

 

[The Albatross]

Being a dumb ass and ingesting acid producing foods when I know I don't have a place to store bile (no gallbladder). No wonder I've been so sick to my stomach. I'm angry at myself.

 

[Definitely..maybe]

My nurse asking why I had ptsd, that is was impossible because I am not military. So I just said 'assaults' in case it mattered for my paperwork. She squinted her eyes at me and just 'mhmm-ed' and then said she just had to be nosy because she doesn't think it's possible.

Even though the doctor (just general practicioner) has diagnosed me along with all my other doctors and psychologist and psychiatrist.

 

[Definitely..maybe]

And then another nurse who claimed to have ptsd asking when my symptoms would come up, and I told her 'always' and she replied that she only gets scared of big trucks and has to slow down driving, but that was all that bothered her.

Then her telling me women who let themselves get raped are stupid. Okaaaaaay.

Bad doctor day!

 

[Britt.f7]

That I want to crawl in bed and sleep like I did yesterday, which was over 16 hours. I wish I didn't feel this way. I'm working on it.