What Made You Angry Today?

[Neverthesame]

The little shift supervisor who had the gall to claim that I didn't report a mechanical issue with one of the refrigeration units.

I might hate this job, but if a freezer isn't keeping food frozen:

1. That could cost the company alot of money. That could result in me losing the job I need to pay my rent.
2. Infinitely more importantly. Some of the food in that freezer is meat. Which means that it can poison people if not stored correctly. No. Bad. Unacceptable. Poisoning people, is a crime. Not to mention I shop at the place this stuff goes to. Never poison your own well. I might hate this job, but that's just sick.

f*cking lazy prick.

What's wrong with kids these days?
Damn millennial's. :mad:

 

[Ronin]

Today: hundred so present things and then Rwanda.

 

[Friday]

@Cashew Amen.

 

[ladee]

I'm not angry YET, but I am getting there.... If there is a measurement for frustration... I am at 99 !!! Do not, I repeat, do not ever have any dealing with AARP(for retired seniors) to get a job. This shit has been going on for almost two months now.... It's a job that I need, but don't want..... I need to work, but do not want to have to deal with people . Sooo, I applied for this stupid job because in essence it won't be hard on my body, thru AARP, Every single time I get ready to be called in, I get phone calls saying I still need to turn in more paperwork..... at minimum wage.. Here in Texas it is $7.25.... My last job I was making $15 an hour.....
So I go in today to tell the Director I am not going to take the job because of the hassles and low pay.... I would be paid thru AARP, not her.
While I am there, the lady called her.... (kismet?) and the director told her I was there... so she gives me a list of all the paperwork I still have to turn in.... and wants to set up an appt to go to Austin for an interview..... That is a two hour drive for me... NOPE... so she then says we can do a phone interview on such and such date.....so I get ready to leave and THEN, and THEN she asks if I am registered with WorkForce...... by then I am getting pissed, not the directors fault, and I sure as hell am not making a very good impression..and by this time, I don't even care !!!
I go and do that, the whole time I am telling the director, I really don't want this job, she is encouraging, because of course she can get me to do scut work at mim. wage.... when I got back I told the director that this was my limit... if one more obstacle comes up, I will not peruse this further.... with this many obstacles, I am seeing, maybe it ISN'T the job for me....
My anxiety level is thru the roof.... not wanting to go to the anger stage..... getting angry now makes me physically ill... literally, and to think I was on Rage Mode most of my life.... so, one more stupid damned piece of paper needed and I will be writing in the 'What made you happy ' thread, because I told them to take this stupid ass job and shove it !!!

 

[Anrish]

@ladee : Sorry to hear that they are giving you such a hard time - but I agree with you, their acting is beyond stupid. ...release the anger, don't block it inside of you. Thank you for sharing and I hope some steam got out. :hug:

Just me.

 

[ladee]

Thanks @Anrish, yes, I am calmer now.... proud that I did not let it go to the anger.... that sharing here did help. I got it out.... and am being heard... I don't have to get angry to be heard here, and am so grateful for that. I like this 'me' better than the angry one. Sending you :hug:'s of gratitude for supporting my feelings.... means a lot to me.

 

[Ronin]

@ladee *

(You're doing fine / thank you for sharing / you'd be welcome angry and not alike, it's good to hear from you / gratitude people around helped you / feelings above my paygrade so asterisking it is for now.)

 

[ladee]

Thanks @ Cashew. I appreciate the knowing I can come here angry. I really work at not going to that place.. I feel like a monster. Its one of my 'parts'.... Street Dog, I feel like a Street Dog, it can get ugly really fast and I can be very mean with my words.... and I don't regret what I say, only in how I said it. So I try to breathe, stay in NOW.
I will go in next week for the phone interview... but will have a few moments with the Director, to ask her to be honest with me... My personality is really not suited to this job.... but I already know what she will say, because she said it today.... How about if we just 'try'? You won't know if you don't try. She is very gentle, yet a no bones and no nonsense person... very firm and healthy boundaries.... looks you in the eye.....
So will practice letting go of the outcome. It's out of my hands... no matter, there are lessons here... I can feel them, just not clear yet what they are....
So I will be making more money than you @ Cashew..... that sucks.... hugs !

 

[Anrish]

@ladee : Be angry all you want. :hug: We are here and listen...and accept you in your anger. ..you will be not angry some other time and you will also be accepted that way here. Never forget that.

I think it's very brave that you give it one more try. You're a brave @ladee, so you will do great. :hug:

 

[Ronin]

Street Dog, I feel like a Street Dog, it can get ugly really fast

Street Dog & me would have a whole pack to bark back at society with.

And then come back to something kind & nurturing & safe.
Some things? Easier done in a pack that gets it, and watches out for you, than alone. Easier not going some depths, too.

 

[ladee]

Thanks @ Anrish.... I can do the job, it is the PTSD that will hold me back.... the anxiety will be high until I learn what I am doing..... I asked for a specific lady to train me. I think she will be patient, but also has a sense of humor. I know I will be ok if I get to laugh at my mistakes and not start taking myself too seriously:arghh;.....So will let ya know after the last stupid interview when I start...... Hope they are ok with me pulling Tara Brach up for meditations...:sneaky:
And thanks for letting me know I am still safe here if I get angry. This is my 'safe place'.:hug:'s

 

[ladee]

@ Cashew, 'Street Dog' took care of me during my drinking and drugging days, she was one bad bitch.. but she hasn't had to take over in a long time.... but bet you and I could relieve some frustrations with some fierce barking and nippin'.....We'll just have to see if we both get pissed on the same day... I got your back !!:hug:'s