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What Makes You Angry Today?

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I'm not sure if I am angry as of yet but, my wife is at work she is a nurse and works two days a week or so. We bought a very nice house in a suburb of Sacramento, California. I am on pain meds morphine and percocet and like a dumb ass I went and bought a bottle of a good wine. I am on the last of it. I hardly ever drink and I don't know why I did today. The last time I did was when my older brother past away at 63 years old 3 months ago. I was in the U.S. army for around 17 years with a bronze star in Iraq and a shit load of shit. I'm 100% disable/service connect through the VA & 100 % with social security, not that it matters, I'm still a dumb ass. I don't think my wife will know about the wine but why the hell am I drinking it after so much cognitive therapy (CBT). and everything the VA could through at me, I turn around and still a DUMB ASS. We have been married for 31 years and she is very smart. She could hardly speak english and she is very beautiful to this day. When she came here from South Korea she worked hard even working at a hospital and going to school at night to become a nurse. We are still very much in love and are very close. As I ways saying I am a DUMB ASS. AA never worked with me and a don't plan on starting up drinking. Well that whats make me angry today.
 
Hey Sunviper

Everyone strays from the path at times. Don't need to be so hard on yourself. It's not like you do this all the time. Sounds like you've got a great partner and that can make a world of difference.
 
Well, I live in a death trap. Old building, old wiring, made mostly of wood, plenty of ventilation...you get the picture.

So between my roomies and I there has been a silent go around where they keep tearing down the smoke alarm because they can't remember to turn on the fan when they cook. I don't have this problem.

So today I'm cleaning and I find the smoke alarm in a drawer and the battery somewhere else. Then the little 23 year old polish princess appears. I blasted her. Basically relayed to her what it is like see people die in a fire and what it looks like after and how you take care of the bodies. Sprinkled with my colorful language of course and punctuated with "You don't make choices for me, the f*cking smoke alarm stays where it is!"

Then she did her usual poor me routine and told me her work got robbed at gun point last night. For which I could give a f*ck less. Oh boo f*cking hoo. You work for Pakistani mafia, expect to get robbed, expect guns you stupid twat.

And that is why I am angry.......for now. Probably angry about something else later. On a roll.
 
Today is one of those days. First, I woke up late for class. Then got stuck in traffic. Two hours into a three hour class, I have stomach issues and go to the bathroom. I come back fifteen minutes later and class got dismissed early. Then I realize that I have a therapy appointment that's in two hours. I completely forgot. :mad:

I end up getting to the hospital an hour and a half early. I end up having to go to the bathroom, AGAIN. I try going on the first floor. Never I good idea with all the people, so, I take the elevator up and go floor by floor until I finally find one on the 8th floor. I sit in a chair on the 8th floor and look at the window. Nice view overlooking the city. It's sunny out and suddenly a storm comes in. Major wind and rain. The building shook for a moment and the lights flickered. So, I panic and first thought is get the f*ck out of there and head towards the elevators. Then I start thinking that I shouldn't take the elevator on a risk that the power goes out and the elevators get stuck.

I walk down eight floors and only the hall lights are on and most of them are partially lit. The back up generator comes on. I get into the mental health ward and of course people are getting pissed because they can't get into appointments and are told to reschedule. I waited it out and three minutes before my appointment the lights come back on.

I decided to go to the gym and workout. I do my best to exhaust myself and decide to take the highway home instead of the indirect route. I get on the highway and it's three lanes of gridlock. Never like this. Two miles west is a four car pile up and the police have only one lane open out of three. :mad:

Some days, you just can't win.
 
0700 Leaf blower outside my window. It is wet here. Been raining for days. What f*cking sense does it make for a guy to stand in a park trying to blow leaves around. They won't go anywhere because.....they are wet. I can only assume this is part of some cruel punishment or the residents of my neighborhood have committed some great crime against the state.

And it's just not enough having a pack of inbred yapping dogs on a nightly basis. No, we have to add this to the mix.

My fury is only equaled by my wonder at how idiotic and miserable this day has begun. I'm hoping for an improvement. The immolation of leaf blower guy might be a good start.
 
Today is one of those days. First, I woke up late for class. Then got stuck in traffic. Two hours into a three hour class, I have stomach issues and go to the bathroom. I come back fifteen minutes later and class got dismissed early. Then I realize that I have a therapy appointment that's in two hours. I completely forgot. :mad:

I end up getting to the hospital an hour and a half early. I end up having to go to the bathroom, AGAIN. I try going on the first floor. Never I good idea with all the people, so, I take the elevator up and go floor by floor until I finally find one on the 8th floor. I sit in a chair on the 8th floor and look at the window. Nice view overlooking the city. It's sunny out and suddenly a storm comes in. Major wind and rain. The building shook for a moment and the lights flickered. So, I panic and first thought is get the f*ck out of there and head towards the elevators. Then I start thinking that I shouldn't take the elevator on a risk that the power goes out and the elevators get stuck.

I walk down eight floors and only the hall lights are on and most of them are partially lit. The back up generator comes on. I get into the mental health ward and of course people are getting pissed because they can't get into appointments and are told to reschedule. I waited it out and three minutes before my appointment the lights come back on.

I decided to go to the gym and workout. I do my best to exhaust myself and decide to take the highway home instead of the indirect route. I get on the highway and it's three lanes of gridlock. Never like this. Two miles west is a four car pile up and the police have only one lane open out of three. :mad:

Some days, you just can't win.

Fish -- it sounds like you should move to the country. I preserved what is left of my sanity by ditching the urban lifestyle. The VA in Montana is OK and I am not forced to tolerate the urban bullshit such as the "very important" people... Sometimes being isolated from most of humanity is just the ticket you need;)
 
Fish -- it sounds like you should move to the country. I preserved what is left of my sanity by ditching the urban lifestyle. The VA in Montana is OK and I am not forced to tolerate the urban bullshit such as the "very important" people... Sometimes being isolated from most of humanity is just the ticket you need;)
I've been seriously considering moving away from the city once I get finished with school.

I try to camp as often as possible. Now that winter is starting to set in, I wont have to worry about any hunters stumbling into my camp.
 
Year ago today, everything changed that's what makes me angry and sad today

Can't change the past. But you can change the future. Don't dwell on the bad, focus on the good. I know Thanksgiving is a purely American holiday but sometimes it takes this kind of day to help remember that you've got to be thankful for what you do have. Hope you have a good one Dave and everyone else too.
 
Seriously, wtf is up with people trying to start fights on the holidays. Everything out of my old ladies mouth at me today is a verbal attack. I haven't said anything to anyone today unless its to respond to something addressed to me. And I know as soon as I show any bit of aggression it'll get blamed on the alcohol.
 
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