What now?

[FauxLiz]

@Freida he is an amazing man (can't call him a kid anymore) He took care of the bills, cleaning and taking care of my house cleaner, did the grocery shopping, took car and fueled the car he was amazing for an 18 year old, going to school full time, with multiple college and AP classes and involvement three extra curricular bands. I just hate myself for being such a burden on him.

 

[Freida]

Your not being a burden -- you are letting him help you! And if hes like most young men that makes him feel important. Because he knows you are doing this for a purpose -- to get healthier. And this is how he can show his support for you

 

[FauxLiz]

@Freida thank you. I am struggling tonight, I can't seem to function in this dark hole and the idea of being around a crowd of people was enough to cause a major panic attack thus I missed his band concert this evening. As a senior that means there is only one more before graduation I hate how much this disease takes from me.

 

[FauxLiz]

I am still in this black hole.today. I contacted my t last night but he can't see me til our regular session on Friday. No I didn't tell him how bad things seem after all I made it through yesterday and most of today. Maybe I will just sleep from now til Friday.

 

[Freida]

How ya doin?

 

[Joan]

Thinking about you and sorry it is so difficult right now!

 

[FauxLiz]

Thanks for reaching out @Freida and @Joan it had been a tough day my t rescheduled our appointment time for tomorrow I know it is a minor thing but still it threw me again.

 

[Freida]

sometimes the minor thing are the biggest stumbling blocks....

glad to hear you are still hanging in there.... big hugs!

 

[FauxLiz]

things have been so down/bad this week I found myself picking out a specific date in the future as a deadline. I suppose I should tell t about this tomorrow just feel like we have so much more to cover and this isn't that important.

 

[Freida]

uhmmmm... a future date is important. More important than anything else -- because it's the one thing that can't wait. So yes -- talk to your T about it. You are in crisis - it's ok to ask for help. You can get to the rest later ..once you are safe

 

[Joan]

I get it...those "little things"....i feel so stupid, but when already struggling those are horrible and upsetting. Hoping your appt goes well today.

 

[FauxLiz]

So saw my t this morning and followed your advice @Freida and told him everything including the future date.

He believes I am in need of a higher level of care right now and has given me 48 to present myself for evaluation or he will take that step out of my hands by contacting emergency services.