Whatcha doooooooin'?

[somerandomguy]

I'm so sorry @Deanna. You've done so much for that poor little cat.

 

[Muttly]

I am so sorry @Deanna. That's a hard decision to make.

 

[Deanna]

I'm so sorry @Deanna. You've done so much for that poor little cat.

Ah thanks.. It's gonna hurt. I apprieciate it.
Also thanks to Muttley and Lionheart.

 

[MrMoonlight]

I'm so sorry Deanna, so difficult but we know when it the compassionate and correct choice. big hugs...

 

[DharmaGirl]

It's one of the hardest things to do, but you're showing mercy. Have your self-comfort list ready. My mastiffs are going to need it soon, poor babes, they are having trouble walking.

 

[MrMoonlight]

On the sofa watching something funny.

 

[Ellabella44]

Feeling like I need to go through the process I used to get sober again. Though I'm drinking non alcoholic beer and sparkling grape juice I'm feeling totally rattled again like I need desperately to detox because even though its not alcohol I'm still binging it.

Told my husband and all he comes up with is excitement that I'm thinking of walking at the beach again like I did years ago to get sober. I'm running away from home to the beach with only my phone and my id again. I've been set back so far recently that I'm trying to drown everything out again. And all I can say is that I'm still sober. But all the urges are there again.

 

[blackemerald1]

And all I can say is that I'm still sober. But all the urges are there again.

^You're doing well Ell.
Nobody ever said that being sober would stop the cravings/urges.
You are still sober and dealing with them by staying sober. So well done you.

I've made three christmas cakes, 20 muffins and a curry today. For family. Been to see an Aunt who is unwell, watched a good horse race (telly), done food shopping, did the washing, and decided not to have an argument with my mother.

Hopefully tomorrow I get to go home.. yay!

 

[DharmaGirl]

Are you doing the mom thing too, @blackemerald1? I've gotten used to going, so it's not so anxiety filled for me.

I'm starting a fire since it's 57 degrees F in my house, which is about 14c. Not bad for outside but a little nippy inside.

 

[Muttly]

trying to wake up. Coffee.

 

[DharmaGirl]

Crying over a stupid thread where I was made the villain by someone. I think I'll take a vacation from here until after my biopsy.

 

[Ellabella44]

Eating dinner. I listened to an 8 hour stop binge drinking hypnosis last night. So far no desire to drink. Yes it's probably just putting a bandaid on things but some relief from the need might help me get perspective on why its a need right now. I have to solve the underlying problem which is my symptomatic response. I need a break from it all so I can keep myself going.