Where To Draw The Line In 2009 - How About You?

[2notbedefeated]

No pressure. I don't want to make this complicated. Just choose one if you want.

These are just some questions I'm asking for myself this coming year of 2009. Just curious if any of you might be interested in sharing what you may be thinking.

*Where will I draw the line in the year of 2009?
*What seeds do I want to sow this year? Growth, well-being,
maturity, acceptance, and/or making a difference in my life or in the life of another.
*Where will I invest my time and energies this year?

1. Taking care of myself
2. Knowing my limits
3. Setting boundaries

-job
-life
-family
-friends
-yourself
-relationships
-with your particular issues
-mental health issues

Are there things I would like to be different this go around?

What are the things I can change?

What are the things I can not change?

Where does acceptance fit?

 

[2notbedefeated]

Off the top of my head I'm thinking:

To be honest, most of these right now are "faith" declarations. I may not see it, don't know if I can believe it, but I choose to receive it.

-I'm saying "No" to defeat! This PTSD is not going to keep me from making the most I can of my life. For this year it is the relationship I have with my husband, kids, and family.

-This "thing(s)" is (are) not going to ruin the life I have been given for today! I want to learn to live and make the most in my life in the here and now moments.

-My abuser is no longer going to control and haunt me. (It starts in my "thinker," and I hope and pray it will begin to move to my "knower").

-I gotta learn to be gentle and kind to myself, so that I have something to share with others. This is perhaps the hardest one for me.

These are just a few that come to mind.

 

[Marlene]

1. Taking care of myself
2. Knowing my limits
3. Setting boundaries

These are really good goals. I do these things now, but I know I could do a better job at them and make my life that much better.

One of the best things I can do, one of the best lines I can draw is for not beating myself up for every little thing in my life. Especially my symptoms. Sometimes they flare up and the road I walk becomes very difficult. Not my choice, but it is my life. I guess that would fall under #1 from above. Or maybe put a #4 of 'Cutting myself some slack'.

Good post idea.

Lisa

 

[Vorzha]

"What seeds do I want to sow this year? Growth, well-being,
maturity, acceptance, and/or making a difference in my life or in the life of another."

Now that I realise that a lot of life is still ahead (I really didn't see any sort of future for a while), I'm considering what I'd like to do with it. Last August I moved to Brisbane, AU- 9,000 miles away from my closest living relative and the last horrific memory. I've had six months to learn to breathe and sleep again, and the love a kind-hearted man to help me begin regain my balance, or at least get my bearings. Here are my thoughts for seed sewing:

1. Plan to return to school, I love it and my bachelor's only scratched the surface of what I want to learn.
2. Though I'm probably too old now to consider flying for the airlines, to at least investigate the possiblity getting my licenses transferred and updated for Australia, and return to aviation.
3. Find a job where I can enjoy my work without over-stressing.
4. Continue painting and writing.
5. Retrain myself to be more tidy
6. Learn to relax and look at the positive

Small plans, I know. ;)

 

[fairandcold]

My resolutions would be to finish out this year of school with A's and B's.
To dance more often.
To write a book detailing my life and struggle with PTSD.
To get closer to my husband.

 

[2notbedefeated]

Vorzah,

They see like "big" steps to me. I feel like I have to encourage myself that any change is of a major significance, especially if is in the right direction. It's how much, it's were your heading. I think it you are brave to step out and begin to make a life for yourself. Go for it - I have to remind myself that it is progress, not perfection. This helps me to be accepting and patient of myself. *hug*

 

[2notbedefeated]

OOps I goofed, what I meant to say is that it is NOT how much, or how big you make it, but it is where you are heading that counts.

 

[cragger65]

This year, there are 3 books I'd like to publish.

One of my colour photography (I put out a book of my best B&W stuff last year... that seems wierd that "last year" was only a few days ago.)

One of my little "Sutras" or sayings (Sutra-zine II it will be called)

And one of my poetry. If I get one of these done, I'll be satisfied ;P

Would like to start recording an album of originals in the studio this year. Even if I got 3 songs down and was totally happy with them, that would be great.

Also, continue going to gym and getting out for my long walks, doing some more photography, keep in touch with my music, cook more wholsome meals... I think that's enough for me!! Oh, and get out with a friend for lunch more often. 'Kay, I'm done.

 

[Luthien]

1)I would like to figure out a plan for the future. (I was going to be a chef, but discovered that because of my Fibro it isn't a realistic goal.)

2)I would like to get over my fear of using my operatic vocals in front of others. (I have a gig singing the lead character in a Rock Opera, which is to happen next month, and I am going to do it. My hope is that this will finally get me over my fear.)

3)I would like to find my misplaced creativity. (I used to write poetry and short stories, paint, draw, sculpt, make jewellery, do textile work and design clothes. It is just one more thing PTSD has taken from me, but this year I am taking it back.)

4) I would like to find a way to forgive myself, and start liking myself again...Boy do I wish I knew where to start with that one.

 

[cragger65]

Luthien,

You've got real guts to sing the lead. The biggest crowd I've ever played to is about 50. I think maybe I've lost my nerve for that.

The very best of luck with finding creativity and self-love. My very best in that endevour.

 

[Luthien]

Thanks Cragger, it means a lot to me.

I wish you luck in your endeavours as well. I found your list to be very interesting.
Have you posted any of your Sutras on here? I'd be interested to see some, if you're into sharing.

Also, do you enjoy cooking? Is it one of your talents? I'm writing a cookbook currently, maybe I could send some of my original recipes your way to try.

As far as my singing goes, I will only have guts if I pull it off. I'm pretty nervous about it right now, as I haven't sang for a crowd since PTSD took over my life..It is just one more thing I feel was taken from me, and that pisses me off to no end.

Before my trauma at 17, I used to sing in front of hundreds without a problem. Now I can't even do it for my husband (who has never heard me sing, because I am too scared to share that part of me anymore)

Maybe that should be on my list.

5) I would like to sing for my husband this year.

 

[2notbedefeated]

Since some of you mentioned creative pursuits and things you enjoyed it got me thinking about what I can do this year in that area.

I have been "hit" with some vision and hearing difficulties in the last 2 years that are making my doing things I used love much more challenge and frustrating.

These things have sort of taken out any motivation and enjoyment out of once loved activities. But, maybe I can try to explore my limits alittle more see what still might be able to do.

Two years ago I had a visual migraine and was left with blind spots in vision that make reading and making beaded jewelry very difficult.

This past summer I developed this annoying ringing in my ears that is now constant. Sometimes it is very loud. Sometimes even sounds will hurt my eardrums and makes playing my flute and listening to music hard. Ugh, why did these things have to happen.

I do love working out. I run and lift weights. I would like to try and be more consistent, as well as try to find the right balance, cause I tend to overdue it.

I also suffer from fibromaylagia. This makes practicing flute and other physical activities more challenging and sometimes painful, but when I stay active achiness and stiffiness not as bad.

I hope to stick" to playing my flute in my church two times a month.

"Cragger65" if your interested in knowing - okay if your not, but I have recorded two "albums" of my flute playing. One is rough, while second was much more polished.

I'm taking a writing course starting Jan. 22 and will last for the following next 8 weeks. It is an autobiography course. I written a book that I haven't tried to publish, but I think I take from this "rough" draft and making more enjoyable reading. I really want to try and publish it.

I want to try and be alittle more of an encourager, rather than a whinner, atleast around family and friends. Try to connect more with my kids.