Poll Who Do You Let Close?

[Heather]

Nobody. Who can I trust? I don't have an answer to that anymore. My world has been turned upside down and that glass has been perpetually half filled.... Afraid it will stay that way forever.

 

[Hush92]

Mom never believed anything I went through and always avoided the issues I would talk to her about. Caused a lot of internalizing on my part and now I'm prone to minimalizing my problems and feelings and beating myself up for having them. So I shut her out more and more and then gave up on her completely. Was never that kind of close with my dad, hated his guts until literally like 3 years ago when I started being able to see past his crazy. So parents no. I only have younger siblings and feel I am supposed to be their strong role model so I can't let myself appear vulnerable to them. My family moves regularly which I feel didn't really allow me to form very deep intimate friendships, and even then I am very self-conscious and am afraid I would lose my friends if I opened up fully to them, or else would begin to use them as garbage cans for my feelings. As a result I'm pretty supportive of other people but require and expect almost nothing in return from others....I like people but see them as pretty useless I guess....

It's always been me and only me. I only started therapy when I was 17 and even then I didn't start fully opening up to therapists until about a year ago. I was afraid of being hospitalized and force-fed meds. My therapist is concerned about how much I isolate myself from others. I have friends who care about me but am still very lonely because no one really knows me or what I've experienced.

 

[physicist13]

some old friends (but very few) and teachers I trust (I am in high school, but get on with my teachers better than my peers)

 

[missfrier]

I don't let aany one get close to me that way I cantget hurt or annoy people I bottle it all up