My username is taken from one of my favourite songs, which I was listening to a lot when I created my account on this forum.
There are some lyrics in that song that resonated with me at that time, particularly: "Don't change your mind, you're wasting light, get in and let's GO!"
It's because my new relationship with my PTSD guy had gone pear-shaped, and he was pushing me away. I felt like saying to him "just make up your goddamn mind whether you want to be with me already! if you're in, then let's DO THIS!"
My avatar is an illustration of Odin's ravens Hugin and Munin, from Norse mythology. They were thought to be the physical manifestations of Odin's thoughts and desires, respectively. I feel like my thoughts and desires are often both wrestling for attention in my mind as I negotiate the tricky bits in my relationship.