Withdrawal Of Gabapentin

[sonicwhite]

Ok, I went fourteen grueling days without gabapentin. I've come to live with my dad. It's been a stressful adjustment and finally today I saw a new pdoc and got on gabapentin again. After going through the same dream over and over I realized the error of my ways. I live in Lebanon TN so I'm pretty sure there is a NA around here.


I'm telling you. I had to go through this pruning process in order to see that I can't abuse that powerful medication. It's the first time since 2012 I have had to go through it. I'm glad I did. Today is a personal testimony of sheer will power in resisting temptation. It has been a hard two weeks. But Gods grace is sufficient.

 

[Fadeaway]

I know that is tough, but my question is what did the ophthalmologist say. I have been very worried about that.

 

[sonicwhite]

Needless glasses. Ever thing is fine. I just have really bad eye sight.

 

[joeylittle]

I'm confused. You got off it, then were put back on?

Glad the eye is ok.

 

[sonicwhite]

Needed glasses I mean. Cold turkey gabapentin/Lyrica at the same time. Thankfully I had klonopin. I went two weeks and by the time I saw the doc I was totally confused. Almost psychotic. I was taking magnesium to help but being on the gabapentin rollarcoaster for five years and then just yanking myself off by my own choices is what opened my eyes. I'm not going to lie to you. It still tempts me.


I'm either going to have to lock myself up and be weaned or just accept it's beautiful effect on me. I wouldn't call it a high. Because I took one dose and it felt like I had taken atleast 3000 mg for a week stretch. Very weird drug. My brain is just stuck on it like crack. I don't know if it's the fact that it helps take away nightmares or that it boosts mood almost like a nootropic? So idk folks. I'm hanging in there tho.

 

[sonicwhite]

Anyone. My dad is strict as hell. I'm afraid to get high off them.

 

[sonicwhite]

Detoxification is just what I have to go through. My dreams become so disturbing that I can't see if it's ptsd or withdrawals at the same time. I'm just hurting myself. I can't stop. I don't know how to stop this gripping addiction. Has my heart grown that hard and cold?

 

[sonicwhite]

Guess beating a dead DEAD horse. I'm sorry folks. The only person I'm hurting is myself. I'm tired of this.

 

[sonicwhite]

Later.