Sufferer Wrong Place Wrong Time

[Leysa]

7 years ago on July 22,2008 my mother,sister and myself went to a get together at her friends home. The night started out so wonderfully. As it came time for my mother to leave because my sister and I decided to stay, we walked her to the car. In the midst of us saying our goodbyes we heard gunshots. My sister was no longer in sight and I hit the ground and could not move a limb on my body. To no avail I realized I had been shot but I didn't know where because my whole body went numb. I laid on the ground and listened to my mother scream as I waited for the ambulance. When I arrived at the hospital my whole family was there except one person MY SISTER so I calmly asked my mom where she was. The devastating look on her face gave me my answer. My sister had also been shot. She was shot in the head and did not survive, I was shot in the neck. My sister was 23 I was 20 I am now 27 and have been diagnosed with PTSD. Sadly it has created issues with my relationships with my family and definitely my love life. I feel separated from life and often have anger spells. I now have a 5 year old daughter and I need to fix myself for her. I'm always so angry and get upset at the smallest things. I don't like the person I've become!

 

[hodge]

I'm so sorry for what you've been through, Leysa. The other night I had a nightmare that I was shot three times in the neck. Then I felt myself fading out, then I woke up. It was horrible. I'm so sorry, too, for the loss of your sister. I didn't like the person I became after PTSD hit me, too. It was only through therapy that I worked out my anger (at abusers, multiple levels and kinds of abuse) and saved my marriage. I'm glad you have your daughter -- that's a great incentive to heal! Take care!!

 

[Leysa]

Thank you so much for your kind words! I was going to therapy but due to unfortunate circumstances I could no longer afford it. Now I feel like I'm back at square one!

 

[hodge]

I'm so sorry you can no longer afford therapy. Have you tried applying for state medical assistance? It's a bear, but there are county social workers who can help you through the process. I know, I've been through it.

 

[Leysa]

No I haven't because I have insurance through my job but I still have a copay of $30 per session. Can I apply anyway?

 

[hodge]

It can't hurt to try. It could be that your income is low enough to afford you state medical assistance.

 

[Leysa]

Ok thank you!

 

[hodge]

Good luck, dear!! Let us know how it went, okay?

 

[Leysa]

I will

 

[Friday]

Welcome to the forums!

 

[hodge]

Good. Good luck with it. And nice photo, by the way.

 

[Leysa]

Thank you