LeiaFlower
Confident
After talking with a fellow member I’ve been trying to be more compassionate to younger me, and she opened up to me. She said “I feel sad again, about my friend not being home in the morning. (she just got in a relationship this past year and when she moved in with us over time she started staying over his house) I think I’m so use to the routine of waking up or coming home, and her being here. So when the routine was broken it made me feel replaced again and alone.” I at first tried to get younger me to understand that people grow up and move away, that their lives change and so does relationships. It sucks but it’s just how it is. “It just feels like everyone is leaving me again that I’m too immature to understand and I’ll only burden them if I tag alone. But it’ll be okay. One day I’ll find someone who won’t leave. Or maybe I’m being childish and it’s my attachment disorder for that makes me want them to stay.” I don’t really know much about shooting her, nor if isolating myself is the right move. I’m new to this. But I’m currently sitting in our favorite slippers and holding tightly to our stuffed animal so we can cry. Adult me wanted to read the attachment style book but I think it’s best to just let the feelings exist? I don’t know. I’m trying to make sure she feels safe and heard. She deserves to have someone care.