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therisa, I am happy to find a TS sister here, in a way that's cool for me. I am native Dutch and sometimes I need to translate words what I've did in the past : Or I go to some known TS chat-room and I have a walking and talking dictionary when I translated things for a book. Prejudices are high on us, even more worse and I am becoming sick of it : Is that curiosity ... measuring if I real woman or not and so on. People told me to be : Blatant, Blunt, Overt(?) to chase them of. Being arrogant when I need ?
I see arrogance or being arrogant as a negative behavior, cause you can block people with that ... when people are not that Talky with their Mouths. As to say I am not a fighter and I am more a writer then a talker. As @
Ayesha said she
can be arrogant , but when you use it ? I am not going to judge, but being arrogant can be a sign that somebody is loosing, or tip-toe'd and if the other site sits a more quiet person, that seems to be quiet and shy ?! But, maybe as me freezes or blocked, or not able to find the words to set this a stop.
As @
billie the Gay Chick said, by an arrogant person you look shy away ... But that is what the other loves as being arrogant and thinking I AM BIG over you. But if things happen as with me at a Police Office (As a transsexual you don't like to visit it, especially not in Brazil and USA - But I have discount with them now :) ), some roles are changing and those persons using their Fake Power in a jacket on you. Even more ... they know most people sits small at their desks. Thinking now I saw a lot of arrogance, but that Gay Woman saw fear on my face and she asked : " Where you are afraid of ? ". But is they know it, they can use it. So rewinding time to the past : I saw arrogance with bags on me. I've told some sentences today at somebody : She was blowed away.
" Lara, You are only looking to yourself and your own problems ! " - Excuse me ... I was involved in helping more then 2 people.
If I once said where they police district people are standing in my eyes, what's a right and even with ...
" Our people (at police) are/must able standing death-threads. " - Thinked about it ... laugh everything away
" I know a trans-man Lara, there is no Taboo anymore ! " - I am an expert/guru by my knowledge ( she forgets my side )
Asking she saw the DVD videos about us, what I gave as activist to learn about us.
" I had no time to see it, but here is the other too. " - The 'other' is evidence (work and white-paper) and prove that I am innocent and the Ministry of Justice find a bat to slam, find the work as printed case the worth 'death-list' as suspicious. So an opened read letter and DVD (that work was printed as case) is screened by DOVO (Belgian military de-mining Team). And the woman said tehy have to empty the building of the Ministry of Justice. The same I send to the King-House, where people asking 50-100 Euro from the King, was not screened by DOVO, there was no incidence ?! But :
" I had to know I send a letter to an official institution ! " - Did I paint my nails for that ...
" Yes Lara, they called DOVO ... " - When I said my internet was slow !
" Yes Lara, DOVO opened the coded case between me and a person in higher rank. " - I was almost a terorrist !
And it went on and on and on ... All based on nothing, but transsexual hate ... or co-workers at Ministry of Justice laughed at it and took a joke with me ?! But what the Minister of Justice know from me, I think 2x, and the previous one : That a person as me is sitting at the wrong side in prison and on the work (DVD) I am against a political party, what was the color of the Minister of Justice. I was then in Greece in 2012. The police woman would say :
" Did you ask the person her/his right to fight for you?! " - Against ...
... " Lara, that neighbor aside your parents house worry about you being angry (on his husband)" - And this was a police-case, but not really one ... But I needed to sign it.
Gossips I saw at my place, was wiped away with : " Isn't it what you have (PTSD) that you see those things ... "
I've asked in other cases the lying detector (But please give every finger on device), as being check-mate to the Department of Work being heavy blackmailed to loose my income, when I was outing myself. NOPE ! May not have it. Since I know there are rooms with dual camera systems, I've asked for them because I need to give my explanation cause a woman with 2-3 faces wanted me and a younger transsexual for court or having a very high penalty cause I've tip-toe'd her. That woman was from a local department of work, who twisted the story that the young transsexual girl asked me to irritate her. But I may not have the room with cameras to tell my story about The Government Department of Work how I always was handled : Because it is for YOUNG kids or HIGH-END criminals. I said I needed some more time and I made my presentation (script) what to tell. And she went tired, that police woman, she said : " I know enough ! ". Yes, she typed 4 pages 50% of my story on 3 hours time, I was in for 3,5 hours.
So you see the sum of Arrogance I saw.
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Barconian , I understand what you say ... BUt do you find arrogance good or do you use it. Guess I open my mouth when I just needed. Or I write 9 pages signed letter to a local hospital to set things straight. Just going thrg through a wall. But does it helps that a management is totally arrogant to me, because of transsexual-hate or been seen as the lowest level people. That department of work blackmailed me 3 times from big to small, the last one I just described : A woman with 2-3 faces THINKS she can put us away.
But at some police cases I blocked out / freeze to give an answer or opinion. I couldn't also say " No answer here ". But in my introduction I've talked about my November thing. It has todo with that Police woman who tried to place a sub-conscious fear-egg in my head : By becoming friends , hooking in, and some more things ... If this sub-conscious fear-egg was done on intention, or even not and not listening to me so an extra fear-egg grew in me. And not listening is that I've e-mailed this police woman that she went already over my borders deep in me. It's that powerless-vacuum / fear-egg she created giving me the big-bang what I've called the flood of emotions cause I wrote a doctor and said my opinion in my words, and how I walk & talk. Nobody change me based on empty cases and assuming a gov. department or Minister can never be wrong.
But in december 2013, I was so empty about that kind of re-experiencing thing or flashback, that I was laying so empty on my bed, that every morning : I said to kill myself at an evening and in 3 days they will brake my house open. My PTSD is worsened, as my guts are saying : By abusive using my fear, fear what a transsexual can have, knowing my PTSD feelings and so on. Details I see now, I cannot describe it now how she handled this.
So that is what I also asked in the beginning, how do you feel if you are hit by arrogance and ignorance. Lara.
