Hello!
Boy am I glad I finally found this. Really, I cannot express what a relief it is to hopefully find support outside my husband.
So let's get down to the nitty-gritty. March 7, 2014 was the date of my "incident". At the Time I was working for a high-end luxury retailer. I was taking a client out for business luncheon to discuss elevated status and increasing his profitability. I worked in commission based sales and he demonstrated qualities that identified him as a high net worth person worthy of being "pursued".
It was the only time in my life I never met somebody and had an instant got reaction of feeling uneasy. However, I disregarded the feelings and decided to go about my business instead that was one hell of a mistake.
I was at this business "luncheon" for over four hours. During this time my client told me to gun, threaten to kill my boyfriend, mention that he is affiliated with organize crime and told me he loved me. At one point he got up and sexually assaulted me. (Forcibly kissed me and put his hands down my shirt) and said to me as he went to the bathroom "you had better be here when I get back".
Eventually, I was extracted from the restaurant where this was taking place. The concern for the safety of myself and my SO was so great that the company paid to put us in a hotel for three days or have an armed guard at our house. It was our choice. We ended up staying in the hotel. My clients in jail and was built the next day. While reading the police report I found out that he had a gun and there was a bullet in the chamber ready to go. He could've killed me quite easily if I had left.
After the incident I was expected to continue working with my clients wife. She had no idea about the
Events that had transpired. A few months after the incident I started experiencing physiological PTSD symptoms like numbness and tingling. I thought there was something wrong with my brain (like MS)
The first month on 2015 I had my first panic attack and continued to have them about 2-3 times a week for the next 8 months. My job performance suffered and as a result I was terminated from my position in August. A day after had met with a psychiatrist to start addressing those concerns. (Oh the irony) Around the same time of my marriage started to suffer. I was plagued by angry outbursts, compulsive behaviors spending, and compulsive lying. It all culminated in a suicide attempt at the end of 2015. I spent two weeks in an inpatient facility getting treatment for my PTSD. The first notable stint in any sort of hospital facility.
I'm on medication to help stabilize my mood and cope with the depression. However, many of the problems storming. And these problems are ruining my life. I'm on medication to help stabilize my mood and cope with the depression. However, many of the problems remain. And these problems are ruining my life and my marriage. I've lied to my husband to avoid any conflict and in turn generate more.
Things weren't always like this. And I know they'll get better with time. But it feels never ending. This suffering never seems to subside. Hopefully here, I can take even more steps.
Thank you,
A
Boy am I glad I finally found this. Really, I cannot express what a relief it is to hopefully find support outside my husband.
So let's get down to the nitty-gritty. March 7, 2014 was the date of my "incident". At the Time I was working for a high-end luxury retailer. I was taking a client out for business luncheon to discuss elevated status and increasing his profitability. I worked in commission based sales and he demonstrated qualities that identified him as a high net worth person worthy of being "pursued".
It was the only time in my life I never met somebody and had an instant got reaction of feeling uneasy. However, I disregarded the feelings and decided to go about my business instead that was one hell of a mistake.
I was at this business "luncheon" for over four hours. During this time my client told me to gun, threaten to kill my boyfriend, mention that he is affiliated with organize crime and told me he loved me. At one point he got up and sexually assaulted me. (Forcibly kissed me and put his hands down my shirt) and said to me as he went to the bathroom "you had better be here when I get back".
Eventually, I was extracted from the restaurant where this was taking place. The concern for the safety of myself and my SO was so great that the company paid to put us in a hotel for three days or have an armed guard at our house. It was our choice. We ended up staying in the hotel. My clients in jail and was built the next day. While reading the police report I found out that he had a gun and there was a bullet in the chamber ready to go. He could've killed me quite easily if I had left.
After the incident I was expected to continue working with my clients wife. She had no idea about the
Events that had transpired. A few months after the incident I started experiencing physiological PTSD symptoms like numbness and tingling. I thought there was something wrong with my brain (like MS)
The first month on 2015 I had my first panic attack and continued to have them about 2-3 times a week for the next 8 months. My job performance suffered and as a result I was terminated from my position in August. A day after had met with a psychiatrist to start addressing those concerns. (Oh the irony) Around the same time of my marriage started to suffer. I was plagued by angry outbursts, compulsive behaviors spending, and compulsive lying. It all culminated in a suicide attempt at the end of 2015. I spent two weeks in an inpatient facility getting treatment for my PTSD. The first notable stint in any sort of hospital facility.
I'm on medication to help stabilize my mood and cope with the depression. However, many of the problems storming. And these problems are ruining my life. I'm on medication to help stabilize my mood and cope with the depression. However, many of the problems remain. And these problems are ruining my life and my marriage. I've lied to my husband to avoid any conflict and in turn generate more.
Things weren't always like this. And I know they'll get better with time. But it feels never ending. This suffering never seems to subside. Hopefully here, I can take even more steps.
Thank you,
A
