Need Some Support

[Justmehere]

Sending you hugs as well :hug:

I wonder too why it's so hard to find people offline who understand what it's like to battle this.

 

[sun seeker]

My abuser/trigger is at my work. He has confined me to a 100 foot long corridor for the last 3 years.

Ouch. That sounds absolutely horrible. I am so sorry to hear that. I'm sure the reasons are complicated, but are there plans to get out of this situation?

I hope you have some positives that can help you with your world

Right now, one thing that is helping is knowing that I do make a difference to others. That I would be missed if I weren't around. It doesn't make me feel good, but it does give some meaning to my existence. That's not enough, but it helps keep me going while I try to build something for myself.

send a little piece over here if it helps

I wouldn't do that, but thank you so much for offering.

I am not in a good place today

Sorry to hear that @gizmo. Lots of hugs back to you...

Sending you hugs as well

and you...

:hug: :hug: if that's legal?

and you...

and anyone else who needs one.

:hug::hug::hug::hug::hug::hug::hug::hug::hug:

why it's so hard to find people offline who understand

Yes, curious isn't it? They must exist. Maybe we're all so good at hiding it that we walk around incognito, rubbing shoulders on the streets and never knowing?

 

[sun seeker]

Right now, one thing that is helping is knowing that I do make a difference to others.

And also, that I do have a truly amazing therapist, who sticks with me through a lot and understands, if not everything, still a great deal. I put a lot of hope in that.

 

[scout86]

When there are so many of us who understand what it's like to feel this bad... why is it so hard to find anyone around us who does?

That's a really good question! I wonder what the answer is?

Hang in there! :hug:

 

[GrayOwl]

Ouch. That sounds absolutely horrible. I am so sorry to hear that. I'm sure the reasons are compl...

I'm working on an exit. But on our little crew of 40: two suicides, one fatal drug o.d., one fatal accident at work, 40 unhappy people here -- and who knows what at 15 other locations. I've been asked to draft new laws and promised support in our state legislature. And perhaps by being strong I can be one of those "offline" supports to someone else that we all dream about. It keeps me going. Since finding this site a few weeks ago I've been able to understand more about my pain and maybe heal and grow stronger it seems. And like you, I like to make a difference.
And yes. You do. Thank you. All those hugs are really cute.

 

[Justmehere]

Maybe we're all so good at hiding it that we walk around incognito, rubbing shoulders on the streets and never knowing?

I think this may be truer than we know.

In which case, I'm the one with the bright purple sunglasses, ya know, blending into my environment. ;)

 

[ladee]

Maybe we should all get Tshirts that says... I have PTSD , wanna talk?... you are right... we are very good at hiding our self in plain site... and I will be the old lady with the permanent scowl on my face.... we are here... just need to find a way to find each other in the real world...

 

[scout86]

Well, my T keeps saying I should be more my real self more of the time, and let people know "the real me". I always thought he was just saying that. Do you suppose THIS is part of what he's talking about?

 

[sun seeker]

Do you suppose THIS is part of what he's talking about?

Why don't you ask him, and report back? That would be an interesting conversation to say the least.

 

[Alyssa]

I was diagnosed with ptsd in August 2015. In December 2015 when I was in the hospital, I was diagnosed with conversion disorder. I was in the hospital because I couldn't walk. When I get triggers from the trauma, my legs go weak and I shake. I'm not able to walk for a few hours then after my triggers. Does anyone else have conversion disorder?? Nobody seems to understand it except my family, doctors, and therapist.

 

[sun seeker]

@Alyssa, I have had times when I feel somewhat like you describe, but it hasn't been enough of a problem for me to worry about it much or look for a diagnosis for it. I do believe there are people here who have conversion disorder, and you may find some threads on it by using the search function. I would also suggest you start a new thread so people notice your question. It's likely to get lost in the shuffle in a thread on a different topic.

 

[sun seeker]

I'm still in a really bad way. It got better for a few days, but I've really sunk to the depths over these past few weeks. Just really trying to hold on because another breakdown would ruin so many opportunities for me. I have to keep showing up for work and being dependable, but I just wish all the demands would stop for a while. The feelings I am going through are off-the-charts intense. I have no idea what to do about it, either.