Needed To Vent

[moshpitmunkey]

Feeling low. Just want to enjoy life. And stop having so much anxiety. I want to stop feeling so hopeless. I want to stop being so triggered around my family. I want the nightmares and intrusive memories to stop. I want to feel something other than despair. I wish I felt like I could trust people with my pain. I want the emotional outbursts to stop. Havent moved from my couch all day. Feeling isolated. Empty. Waiting for work, waiting and scared to start therapy. Wondering what the other side of this looks like. Want to have a relationship, a life outside of this that is fulfilling. been thinking about self harming but haven't. Not sure how to get out of this rut.

 

[trying2movefwd]

I am sorry @moshpitmunkey It can get better, slowly over time. I don't have a lot I can say as I am struggling too. Your not alone though. Take Care. Do something nice for yourself if you can instead of harmful. .* things I ought to be telling myself *

 

[RavenGirl]

Welcome to the forum, sorry you have to be here but glad you found us. I think the best thing you can do is pick up the phone, make the call, and start trauma therapy. :tup:If it's to hard for you to call, is there someone who could call for you? (My husband called for me)
I know how scarey it is, but I think you'll be so glad you made the call. After I started therapy so many other aspects of my life started to fall into place. I hope the same thing happens for you. Welcome again where people understand what you're feeling. :hug:

 

[moshpitmunkey]

I am sorry @moshpitmunkey It can get better, slowly over time. I don't have a...

Thank you for the encouragement I'm gonna try and do something nice for myself and I hope you're being nice to yourself too! I think we'll make it through this.

 

[moshpitmunkey]

Welcome to the forum, sorry you have to be here but glad you found us. I think the best thing you c...

This is such a comforting message thank you. I think I'm gonna make the call Monday and actually take that step to start therapy. And I hope that it will help me like its helped you. Thank you for sharing this its very much appreciated. Trying to get over my fears

 

[Trinket]

I wish good luck to you in therapy when you call on Monday. Since I started trauma therapy four months ago, I have already felt a little better just by getting some ways to cope with my anxiety, something you say you deal with a lot of too. I really hope this helps you too, as well as being on this site :)

 

[EveHarrington]

:hug:

 

[moshpitmunkey]

I wish good luck to you in therapy when you call on Monday. Since I started trauma therapy four months a...

It really helps to hear that positive things have come from therapy from you and others who have shared that with me. And coming here has helped me feel less alone and like I have so much more support than I did before. Thank you for reaching out. Really hoping to heal.