My mind is floating in the wind

[Punky143]

My body floats as I navigate through the stores hoping I don't see anyone, especially someone I know. My kid part came out in full around my daughter and husband and although it was fun, it didn't last so now I'm back in the low land. Fighting to not buy something in the store that will aide in the temptations of SH. Urgh, and I'm not in this body...

 

[theshadowoftheliving]

I'm sorry, Punky. Breathe deep. Remember that the part that wants to hurt you is just a part ... The fact that you posted here means that another part is trying to avoid hurting your body. Perhaps you should leave be stores if you think it would keep you from buying something that could hurt you?

 

[sun seeker]

This may not apply here, but I find that if I can put some sort of safeguard in place to make it harder to hurt myself, the parts of me that don't want to be hurt feel relieved and there is a sense of peace/being protected from harm.

I agree, can you get out of the store? Go somewhere safe and do something to come back into your body? Holding ice is often good.

 

[Ronin]

You ARE in your body, if you hurt yourself, you'd be in your hurt body, and that doesn't help.

Can you get somewhere where you feel more connected?

Eventually, where you feel safer (the childhood you feels safer)?

 

[Punky143]

The child part never feels safe. Because the world is unsafe

 

[Ronin]

the world is unsafe

That's true, but that doesn't mean you can't get through it. :tup:

You've already done it so many times, you're still alive and well enough, well enough to be aware of a thing like feelings, too.

 

[Punky143]

I'm too aware of my feelings and thats what the problem is. Over thinking...all the time. Obsessed really. Especially when one of "us" demands something the rest won't stop until we have it.

 

[EveHarrington]

:hug:

 

[Ronin]

I'm too aware of my feelings and thats what the problem is.

How are you with mindfulness & grounding techniques? They could help that being absorbed by emotions I think.

when one of "us" demands something the rest won't stop

That someone needs to learn their wishes won't be always met, though.

& That whoever's most grounded at the time takes the lead, not the other way around.

 

[Robynd516]

Great description! Perfect ...this is what i call dissociation...is this the right term
Other people notice but i dont until im kinda out of it looking back at the missing time that passed