Sufferer Hello There

[Carolion]

Hello, my name is Carolyn and I'm 26. I've never really been very open about my ptsd beyond generalized snippets with few exceptions and I usually regret it when I do. I'm not great about talking about it with therapists because I just don't know or trust them and it's not like when you talk to a friend and it's give and take and you atleast know a little about the person. And I feel like personally most of the therapists I've met seem overly fake or superficial. Anyways, I've been a sufferer of ptsd for around 15 years with one trama over lapped by another and another and another it's just a mess. I'm an abuse survivor and a rape survivor as well as some other traumas that I'm not sure how to categorize without getting into a mess of detail. And I have to say it doesn't feel a lot like surviving it feels more like existing just not very well. There are good points to my life but they just seem over shadowed often by everything that's happened. I'm hoping that this will be a good outlet for me to connect with other people that have been through similar things and that cope with ptsd. I think I need to talk about it in a way that feels safe even if it's still hard. And I'm more than happy to have any suggestions I'm so desperate at this point. I want to want to live instead of just waiting for a time when when I don't have to anymore. I don't want to live in constant fear all the time. I'd like to be able to feel safe again leaving my house. I am an artist but I can't manage to hold down a steady job with a dependable income. I can't ever live by myself I know that it would be dangerous for me to do that but it'd be nice to atleast think that I could be capable of it. On the other side of things I'd like to say that I'm more than happy to talk to anyone that wants to or even if they just need someone to listen I promise I wont judge. I'm very compassionate and empathetic and I'd like to help if I can. I just figured I'd throw that out there. Anyways feel free to say hello ^-^

 

[EveHarrington]

Welcome! :hug:

I think you'll be able to find lots of support here. :)

 

[Carolion]

Welcome! :hug:

I think you'll be able to find lots of support here. :)

Thank you so much I really appreciate that. I actually feel really optimistic about joining which is weird for me. I'm kinda afraid to be hopeful but I am anyways. I think talking to people here could really help me in a significant way.

 

[EveHarrington]

Being optimistic is a good sign!

I think this place really is a treasure. I've never found another site quite like it.

I hope you feel comfortable posting on the main forum. Sometimes posts take some time to get replies, so if you don't get a response immediately, please don't feel discouraged. It happens to everyone at one point I believe.

If you have any questions, please don't hesitate to ask. It can sometimes be difficult learning how to navigate around a new site. :hug:

 

[BoN-bOn]

Welcome! I'm new here too & I've found this site helpful. It's nice to know that you aren't alone...& you are not alone!! I am dealing with overlapping traumas as well & have a hard time talking about things.

 

[Carolion]

Being optimistic is a good sign!

I think this place really is a treasure. I've never found anoth...

Thank you very much ^-^ Everyone I've spoken to so far has been very kind. But I suppose with everything everyone on here has dealt with empathy for others in similar situations is a prerequisite.

 

[Carolion]

Welcome! I'm new here too & I've found this site helpful. It's nice to know that you aren't alone...&...

If you ever feel like you want to talk I'm always happy to listen. I think ptsd is just one of the harder mental things to deal with because so much of it is indescribable and people without it just make you feel crazy regardless of how good their intentions are. So far though it seems like this is a really good place for people like us.

 

[BoN-bOn]

If you ever feel like you want to talk I'm always happy to listen. I think ptsd is just one of the har...

Thank you @Carolion ...same to you! I'm a good listener! This site is a great place of support.