Fear

[Deleted member 541]

@I_will_recover Yes Anthony can be a bit intimidating at times.... I think it's just him, his way, but honestly he's fair about things.

 

[oasis2003]

Losing time

 

[I_will_recover]

@I_will_recover Yes Anthony can be a bit intimidating at times.... I think it's jus...

I'm easily spooked by men I feel are in a position of power. Like I'm afraid he'll read a post and boot me from this site which I desperately need to function but... I super glad he created it and my fear is unfounded but that's how my illness cptsd screws up my perception of things. I'm working on it and thanks for understanding :happy:

Hi Anthony :whistling:

 

[I_will_recover]

I'm afraid of everyone.

But you are not alone. I'm an everybody and you don't have to be afraid of me. I'm here looking for support. I'm also here to give support.

 

[I_will_recover]

I'm afraid of saying what I am afraid of. :(

Maybe you could write it down on a piece of paper. Add things you fear as necessary for the next 24 hours. Reread what you written the next morning and set that piece of paper on fire. It won't fix anything but it might help cleanse your mind for a bit. This is a suggestion not a directive. Hugs if you are able to except them:hug:

 

[illusionist]

I have quite a few, but my list has lessened as I've faced quite a lot of my fears.

 

[EveHarrington]

But you are not alone. I'm an everybody and you don't have to be afraid of me. I'm here looking...

Thank you.

I am working on this issue of mine. I know it doesn't seem rational in the least. It's tied in with my hypervigilance and it's a struggle to tame. I wish I wasn't this way. I wish I could feel ok around people. I don't like being alone all the time.

:hug:

 

[illusionist]

@EveHarrington .......your fear is totally rational to me.

 

[EveHarrington]

Thank you @illusionist its good to hear you say that. :hug:

 

[anonymous]

I'm afraid that this is all that's left of me and my life. That now, it's just a question of how long to keep breathing.

 

[EveHarrington]

I'm afraid that this is all that's left of me and my life. That now, it's just a question of how lon...

Can I ask how far along you are in healing? :hug:

 

[I_will_recover]

Now that I'm not afraid of Anthony :tup: I can think of a recent fear: knowing that while my T and I have a good relationship and have worked together before, during and after my trauma, that if anything happens to him (my personal fear of abandonment) my trauma is pronounced and my suicidal ideation is exceptional high I'm considered a high risk patient and other Ts consider me a malpractice liability:oops::(
Nothing I can do but try to get the severity of PTSD managed. That's why I'm here :shy: