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What emotion do you dislike most in yourself?

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Wow! its surprising to see the same feelings discussed over and over and to be able to relate. I have issues with fear too. It used to be worse but then last year I got a doggo and he helps me get outside and want to do things and go new places, at least just to show him.

There is another kind of fear i have: of life. I medicate to help me deal with anxiety about meeting people and going places and doting new things. But sometimes I indulge as a away to avoid the experience altogether. Like ill smoke a bunch and purposefully will get caught up in a project to run out of time or to conveniently forget to do something i need to or go somewhere i said i would.

I like smoking pot but hate myself for using it this way sometimes. Last night I picked my partner up form work and afterward we (some of their co-workers) all went to have dinner. Usually I want to go straight home but I just went to dinner and it was actually really fun. Plus I got to have a triple stack of pancakes at 2AM so.. WOOT WOOT!! :)
 
Feeling weak. Don't think that's really an emotion. Helpless to fix a situation? That's the worst. T...
Yes, that wanting to feel wanted is a big one, has been something in my life I have worked at. One has to be a good friend in order to have a good friend and that is sometimes not an easy thing to do! I try though. And sometimes I have succeeded. Sometimes not. It really depends upon what the other person is looking for. Sometimes you have it in you and sometimes you don't, no matter how hard you try.
 
Sadness

I spent so long feeling like I needed to suppress negative emotions that I have had to learn how to have emotions. Sadness has been the hardest because for the longest time letting even the littlest bit out turned into uncontrollable waves of misery, loneliness, and guilt. This seems kind of contradictory, but I've found that as I'm better at letting go that I am actually in more control of my emotions. I'm hoping that with further therapy that I'll conquer my fear of emotions and sadness has always been the worst.
 
Shame and fear send me to the ditch quicker than the others, it seems, but they all have great potential to do so. It really just depends upon the day you ask, as once my emotions reach a stage of overwhelm, even the good ones can really suck. Emotional tsunamis....ya' just never know when one is gonna take over and wash you away.
 
Shame and fear send me to the ditch quicker than the others, it seems, but they all have grea...
I love that "emotional tsunami" concept, what perfect wording for when we get overwhelmed by our emotions. You have a special way with words!

As to shame, yeh, that one is a tough one. For years I suffered with it. However, I think at some point I finally got cured of it, basically when I found out that God forgives me for everything I have ever done, am doing and will ever do that is viewed as "less than" by man.

The emotion I dislike the most is anger/contempt/resentment.

The emotion that has gotten me in trouble...
Yes, anger got me into the worst fit of rage I ever had in my entire life. Granted, I was only 12 years old the, but still.... I don't ever want to be that angry again, yet something in my recent past had gotten me so angry that I was feeling some hints of needing to "do" something about how I was feeling. When anger gets you to feeling like taking some kind of revenge or taking some kind of action toward the person who has made you angry, it is really time to stop and think. The trouble is, when you get angry, thinking about sensible things is nearly impossible!
 
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I abhor when I have the feelings of helplessness:poop::poop::poop::poop::poop::poop::poop::poop::poop:
 
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