• 💖 [Donate To Keep MyPTSD Online] 💖 Every contribution, no matter how small, fuels our mission and helps us continue to provide peer-to-peer services. Your generosity keeps us independent and available freely to the world. MyPTSD closes if we can't reach our annual goal.

Medical My adult son has cancer

Status
Not open for further replies.

Iamsensative

Confident
Its crazy 3wks ago i was amazed wjat a fairy tale life he and his wife have. He has a good job, they love each other so much. Bam, life hits out of nowhere. Its a rare cancer and we find out tomorrow the stage and if its metastasized. He is only 32..i keep thinking i will wake up from this nightmare, but its real. My body goes from feeling, to numb. I have to control myself from hurting myself, cutting being a way to cope. I dont know if i will get through this without breaking down. The ringing in my ears is so loud, strsnge music i sm hearing outside myself. I am so scared, he has gone through so much and i have tried so hard to give him everything that he needs. But i cant fix this, i cant take it away. I am terrified of losing him, terrified of what he may have to go through. I need to keep myself together for him and i am scared i will fall apart. I am floating and i am poppinf klonopin to keep the anxiety and panic from taking control. I really just need some support from you all. Everyone has always been wonderful. If you pray, please pray for him. Thanks all for listening. Once i get results i will update when i can.
 
Constant prayer for you son, you and your family. I would be feeling the same way. Please do not self harm. There are a million ways to be thru this, That is not your solution... Thanks for letting us know. Do you mind telling us his first name? you don't have to by any means, but it would make it more personal in prayer. Sending healing energy and strength and courage to a mom facing her worst nightmare. Lots of gentle hugs of support.
 
Nothing is easy about this and there are no "rules" about how to cope. My daughter battled brain cancer and I remember the initial diagnosis just turned the world upside down. I know for a while I disassociated because of the days I lost. The only thing I can suggest is take each moment as it comes and I found it helpful just to do something. I cooked, drove, took care of her dogs, cleaned and anything that I could do so she could focus on treatment and getting well. I will keep you and your family in my thoughts and prayers. Reach out for any support you can as it is a rough ride full of ups and downs.
 
Terror grips me. At night i see my son as a little boy, laying in bed desperately trying to keep his world and brothers normal. Protect, no trauma. Just like when my younger son was sexually abused. Hope, positivity, smile. God I am so scared i will break from this and be no good for him.
 
Status
Not open for further replies.
Back
Top