Should i be asking for meds?

[LilyRose]

I have a question

I am not doing well, decided to take the day off because it keeps getting worse. Last week i've had moments i was so bad i was thinking of going to my gp for meds. Also my si seems to be getting more real and it scares me. (Don't want to act on it, so don't worry)
I am so sick of feeling like i am now, panic atacks, hypervigilance, no sleeping, anxiety, taking risks and angry outbursts... i am very tired and do not want to get out of bed.
Problem is i really really hate meds, especially sleeping meds. I am scared of those.

Should i ask for it anway?
I don't know what to do, but i do know something has to happen before i really lose control.
(Don't have a therapist at the moment. Will be talking about further treatment with someone in 2 weeks)

 

[Cactus Bloom]

I have a question

I am not doing well, decided to take the day off because it keeps getting worse. La...

I’m so sorry with what you are going through and yes, it is a hard decision to decide if you want to get on meds or not. I just want to ask if you have been on any meds in the past and if you have did you notice any benefit? I think most of us have had to try different meds for years to find the right ones that finally helped in many ways but also they might not have helped either.

Of course the best thing to do is to be in therapy but it’s going to be a few weeks before you can get in to seeing someone. I have several opinions and I know others will join in with their thoughts also so hopefully something will sound right to you.

When you say sleeping pills, are those the ones like Ambien or Lunesta that are only for sleep that you don’t like? There are many different meds that can help with depression, anxiety, and insomnia in the form of antidepressants or antipsychotics. That would be something to think about. Also, I’ve been taking CBD oil to help with those issues and they help a lot of people but with everything else, it’s never a guarantee that it’ll work or not.

Exercise, eating better, meditation, and writing in a journal can have positive effects. I’m sure you have heard of all of these things and they all take time.

I’m not very good at advice but I wanted to let you know that I hear you and am glad you are here to get support and hopefully someone can guide you in the right direction.

 

[LuckiLee]

You don't necessarily have to ask for meds just tell your go what is going on. He can steer you in the right direction.

Take care of yourself.

 

[LilyRose]

I’m so sorry with what you are going through and yes, it is a hard decision to decide if you want to...

I have never been on meds before.
Its sleeping pills in general.. someone allmost killed me with pills when i was about 10yrs old... don't know which one.. but now i hate them all. Just scared of losing control or not waking up i guess.
I know what excercise, eating better and extra vitamines and stuff can do,.. it helped me alot last year. But i can't do it know, i've tried but its been to much lately and i am messing it up everytime... so for now i need something else to get there again.

 

[Mach123]

That was how it started for me and it didn't go well. I still miss her. I used to have a bad thing for her and fantasize about her. Dr. feelgood. I know you are asking a legitimate question and it's a hard one but this really did happen to me. I was totally in love with her because she was feeding me those pills and I would have done anything for her. In the end my "support group" intervened and she was gone and I'm still resentful about it lol. Those pills got me the only relief I'd felt in years and years. Sigh. Some things never change.

 

[Cactus Bloom]

I have never been on meds before.
Its sleeping pills in general.. someone allmost killed me with pill...

I’m so sorry! I don’t blame you for being scared of taking them! None of those things have helped me either and believe me, I’ve tried everything. I just wanted to throw things out there but there is a time and a place for everything but sometimes not ever.

You should go talk to your doctor and see what he/she recommends. I’ve had insomnia for over 20 years and have taken pretty much everything there is out there for medications for sleep. I take benzos and clonidine for sleep since that’s the only thing that works for me now. But, I don’t have the trauma connected to pills like you do so it’s easy for me to try anything where it is extremely difficult for you.

 

[LilyRose]

That was how it started for me and it didn't go well. I still miss her. I used to have a bad thing fo...

sorry, what do you mean by this? what happend to you?

 

[EveHarrington]

Hi, I have no idea where you are, but do you have the option of seeing a psychiatrist?

Ptsd is a bit more complicated than just straightforward anxiety or depression so it’s best IMHO to see a psychiatrist who understands the full gamut of psychiatric medications that may help you.

Many GP’s won’t prescribe anything beyond antidepressants. Mine won’t, and requires me to see a psychiatrist for medication management.

Hugs.

 

[ladee]

You sound very rational, and have legitimate fears about taking meds. If it will be awhile before you can start seeing another T, then going to your GP and explaining what is going on... AND your fear of meds... will help them to help you. There are so many meds on the market now, and yes, sometimes its difficult to find what works.. your mind and body need a break. And when we aren't sleeping, it only makes things a thousand times worse..

You certainly do not sound like someone who would abuse anything, so please, talk with your GP and see if something will help. You are aware you need a break... it is a form of self care to ask for help with this.. hope you find something that works that doesn't cause you to be fearful and you get good results. Thinking of you and hoping you get some help soon....

 

[LilyRose]

Hi, I have no idea where you are, but do you have the option of seeing a psychiatrist?

I think i have to wait for my evaluation in 2 weeks. I think they can help me with that. They know more than my gp and they have psychiatrists. Just have to keep going for a few more weeks and hope they know what to do next.

You sound very rational, and have legitimate fears about taking meds. If it will be awhile before you can...

Yeahs i miss a good night sleep.
I would not abuse pills, altough sometimes on bad days when my si is haunting me i could make bad decisions.. but i am fighting against it.

 

[Cactus Bloom]

I think i have to wait for my evaluation in 2 weeks. I think they can help me with that. They know mor...

I certainly hope you find relief soon. Everything is so much more difficult when you’re not able to sleep. When you say you may make bad decisions when you’re being haunted does that mean you may take more pills than you should? If that’s the case then is there someone who lives close that you feel safe with and trust that may be able to keep your medication and you just get what you need for each day? The reason I ask is because I would get in these horrible state of mind where all I wanted to do was stay asleep all day and night to escape the pain I was feeling so I would take way too much of my otc sleeping pills and xanax and would overdose all of the time because I couldn’t control myself from not taking them. Now, I live next door to my mom and she keeps all of my sleeping meds and Adderall and go over to her house every morning to get only my days worth of my meds so I can’t take too much anymore. Just wondering if you have someone that can possibly do that for you.

 

[ladee]

^^^^^ Great suggestion @Fionas74 !!! We can use all the help we can get.