5 Things I'm Thinking Today

[Muttly]

1) holy hell am I tired
2) And my body is grumpy. chiropractor appointment didn't seem to help. Maybe tomorrow... and.. again I am drinking to relieve pain. Which tells me two things. when I start resorting to drinking or using pain meds I have left over from other things, it means I'm in a *lot* of pain. And it's been most nights this week? so, I need to watch and be careful. No addictions for me. nope nope.
3) I do have health insurance again so that's a positive thing
4) Special pup has had some pups, but over all is on an upward trend. lets keep that going.
5) I wonder if manager doesn't like coworker d for reasons other than her job performance? what I see is someone who has huge potential with some rough edges. granted I haven't been there as long, so I could be missing stuff. It does make me worry if it's a race or class thing or something like. regardless, I like D and she's the kind of person that brings out my helper instincts. there's a great person in there if you just make a bit of effort.

 

[Ronin]

1) @Muttly, you are aware of it and decided to not drink again, which is commendable. Kudos on stopping yourself mid relapsing.
2) I get those people mean well, but that is still messed up employment.
3) ... and I'm tired. So it's gonna be accomplishments and Metallica hour some more, because I promised someone I am keeping me well, and suicidal over work is not that.

 

[Rani G2]

1. Dealing with fear
2. Fear: Someone will one day will argue in a way that leaves me ashamed, me having NO words, me being frozen
3. But I do things to be more mindful of it
4. What if someone thinks I am a stupid weak person?
5. I will die if I loose

 

[Muttly]

@Ronin Thank you. To clarify, I have never been addicted but I come from a long family history of alcoholics and some drug addicts. So I am super cautious. And, here's where it get's confusing. A few of my insiders definitely would be addicted if we let them. They love to numb out. So, we have to be vigilant

1) ok, since I'm here I might as well 5 think
2) I woke up to dog poop all over the floor. I didn't hear her ask to be let out. So, she either didn't or it was quiet. And it's the disabled one and she just can't hold it. And then, because she's blind and uncoordinated, she walked through it, spreading it around. Fun
3) Am I really going to do that?
4) Dear powers that be, can I have a new body please?
5) if I can get myself moving, I can get into the woods before other people do

I'll add a 6 just because.. there's that thread about money and happiness. Lots of good replies. Being poor-ish (or poor) sucks. heh. It's the whole Maslow thing

 

[DharmaGirl]

I have prided myself on doing poverty well. Not to respond in any way to your comment, @Muttly, it just reminded me that I think that way. I get lots of free things from Craigslist and by the side of the road, fix them up and use them, I am fortunate to have a big yard for chickens and gardens, I buy my flowers when they are on clearance since the bulbs are still good. Stuff like that.

I need to finish the floor of the playhouse coop today, since the other coop leaks.
There is something about square I don't get.

That's a whole bunch of thoughts, I'm done thinking for now, lol.

 

[Tornadic Thoughts]

• That hat ain't making itself, yo.
• How many vegans does it take to make a carrot top hat?
• Apparently more than just this one.
• Mow, mow, mow the grass....but not before you forage...
• Merrily, merrily, merrily, merrily life is but a dream.

 

[EveHarrington]

1) damn these pain meds for taking hours to kick in. Don’t they know I’m in pain now?!? That hospital IV pain stuff I got last night was so sweet lol.

2) so glad I didn’t sell my amber ring. It’s the one thing (ok, one of two things) that always gets me compliments. I still find it funny that people assume a man bought it for me. As if lol.

3) I’m glad my sister likes my new haircut/color. I look up to her and seek her approval even though she’s younger than me.

4) So glad I get to see my nephew again! So glad my sister is moving back here in the next few years!

5) I should sleep lol

 

[Tornadic Thoughts]

• Government whores who neglect the few clean natural resources we have left in exchange for their supposed "economical boosts" really piss me off....ya' can't eat or drink money, you idiots, but clean water is absolutely priceless...unless of course you're the ones buying up waterways to bottle it and sell it back to people.
  
• Seeing people being arrested and fined for trying to protect their own land/homes that they've purchased, maintained, and nurtured for a lifetime makes me sick to my stomach...as his-story violently repeats itself.
  
• Only being shown the "shiny" side of so many detrimental acts we engage in daily and ritually really gnaws my nerves...as I'm specifically thinking of all the horses who can't speak up being used and abused in the derby races yesterday, simply for "fun", profits, and human entertainment. Grrrrrrrrrrr...
  
• Trying to keep being the changes I wish to see can become heart wrenching, exhausting, and make me question my own sanity as I'm clearly outnumbered in each pursuit.
• Making the efforts as fun, kind, real, and tasty as humanly possible helps me stay grounded and somewhat sane in the grand scheme of things, but holy shit have things managed to get way out of hand in a short amount of time, and sometimes it's really hard to remember that real isn't always viewed as being nice.

 

[Ronin]

1. Not all help is a lie (testing hypothesis)
2. Still at testing: Scoutie and The best memories that were not created yet.
3. I went out for a beer and came back with a lemonade. And then say children are not responsible lil suckers. Damn D.I.D.
4. Anxiety through the roof and it was just hints.
5. Same results. Cant f*cking believe I did five months long hunt just for a dance with derealization.

 

[Tinyflame]

5. Same results. Cant f*cking believe I did five months long hunt just for a dance with derealization.

1. Dear @Ronin , it's just one dance, the music can change. :hug: I think you did Great!!!!! Lemonade sounds Glorious, actually. Can I come over and share? (I am pretty harmless as long as I'm wearing comfortable shoes. :) :hug::hug::hug: ) Xoxoxox
2. A puppy-shower is in order @Muttly ? :):hug::hug:
3. @DharmaGirl :hug: @Tornadic Thoughts (I'm sorry :( ) :hug: @PURUSHA :hug: @EveHarrington :hug: @ladee :hug::hug:
4. Someone called me an angel .:happy::notworthy: (They drink lemonade I think @Ronin .. :):hug::hug::hug: )

 

[Ronin]

1. @Junebug, totally can come and share, and if the shoes no fitting, I would be for tossing them. .)

 

[Tinyflame]

I would be for tossing them

Yay! :happy::tup::tup::tup::tup:

2 Lemo-aides, coming up. And cookies. :happy:
:hug::hug::hug::hug::hug: