How Would You Describe The Pain Of Your Sexual Assault To Your Therapist?

[Snowflake]

How would you describe the pain of your sexual assault to your therapist?

 

[hithere]

I wasn't in touch with the pain. So could not describe or feel any pain.

 

[Kubash16]

Let yourself be safe enough to actually visit that time in your mind as you are talking about it. Rather than just reciting facts like we tend to try to do. Visit it and let what you were thinking at the time come out and it will come across to your T.

 

[EveHarrington]

Uncomfortable.

 

[Ronin]

Wouldn't.

Since BS pain whines about things I do not want his help with. Would be different if I actually wanted his input, or recommend me someone with better input.

Also because the thing bothering me least about sexual assaults in my history, is pain.

 

[ILoveLife]

See no point in doing so.
Besides, I dissociated so damn much that I really don't remember the pain, if there was any, anymore.
Hard part is possibily explaining the pleasure...

 

[Friday]

It’s never even occurred to me, to do so.

 

[MyWillow]

Weirdly I have a flashback of a memory I can’t place. And the thing that struck me was knowing the child was in pain. But I didn’t experience it so.... I dunno. WTF do you do with that? I can’t even bring myself to bring it up with my psydoc. Ignore it and it will go away.

 

[somerandomguy]

I'd kinda like to know why you want to do this.

During my first trauma therapy, one of my assignments was to write out the story of my sexual abuse while trying to recall as many senses as possible - what I heard, felt, smelled, tasted, etc. The point was to change the experience from a "story" into something that really, actually happened TO ME.

But one thing I specifically don't remember is the pain. Our brains don't recall pain very well once it's over. That's by design. I remember feeling it, but I don't remember what it physically felt like anymore which is completely normal.

 

[ILoveLife]

That's really interesting, SRG.
Possibly the same reason T keeps asking me what I feel when disclose details in therapy. I wonder if that's the reason I became sort of okay-ish with remembering the details of it?

I've gotta admit somewhere, this T makes me mad but she has some solid skills.

 

[Snowflake]

I'd kinda like to know why you want to do this.

During my first trauma therapy, one of my assignments was to write out the story of my sexual abuse while trying to recall as many senses as possible - what I heard, felt, smelled, tasted, etc. The point was to change the experience from a "story" into something that really, actually happened TO ME.

But one thing I specifically don't remember is the pain. Our brains don't recall pain very well once it's over. That's by design. I remember feeling it, but I don't remember what it physically felt like anymore which is completely normal.

I’m doing EMDR and my therapist is asking me what’s bothering you about the memory. It’s the pain.

 

[Friday]

my therapist is asking me what’s bothering you about the memory. It’s the pain.

Have you told them that? Seems like a good place to start?