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Medical MRI Shows Tumors & Cysts On Spine

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I blew my knee out or up yesterday. All you can do is laugh. I moved a bunch of my wife's priceless possessions (junk) that are in a trailer in the yard. I sat down awhile and when I tried getting up I couldn't. I had a knee surgery about 10 years ago. I couldn't walk the last couple weeks before that. They removed a floating mass the size of a golf ball. I was fine for years after, jogging and everything. It's better this morning but so extremely painful my stomachs been a little upset limping around.
Everything is "off" quite a bit right now. I laughed and had fun with my wife yesterday. I like it when she's around. I was afraid I'd have to go to the dr. Today and her crutches but after being up a few hours I think I'm going to be able to limp through it.

One kids out the door. Regular van driver is back next, week 3 day weekend. Biopsy results next week.
 
I blew my knee out or up yesterday. All you can do is laugh. I moved a bunch of my wife's priceless possessions (junk) that are in a trailer in the yard. I sat down awhile and when I tried getting up I couldn't. I had a knee surgery about 10 years ago. I couldn't walk the last couple weeks before that. They removed a floating mass the size of a golf ball. I was fine for years after, jogging and everything. It's better this morning but so extremely painful my stomachs been a little upset limping around.
Everything is "off" quite a bit right now. I laughed and had fun with my wife yesterday. I like it when she's around. I was afraid I'd have to go to the dr. Today and her crutches but after being up a few hours I think I'm going to be able to limp through it.

One kids out the door. Regular van driver is back next, week 3 day weekend. Biopsy results next week.

I like your attitude about this.
 
My knee was better the last couple days but today was bad. It's really painful, I'm limping and waking very slow.

I spoke to the nurse at the urologist and the bleeding I'm still experiencing is normal or, within the normal range.

Hobbling across the cross walk today in the city today was a humbling experience. It makes you feel very vulnerable when you are jerking around in pain because that's what it makes me do.

I've been through it before buy this week with the biopsy and the arthritis and my spine which is in bad shape in a certain area and the cold rainy weather?

I'm at about a 6 on the pain scale with twitches from 8 to 10. I can't always get comfortable right
now even sitting or lying down.

I'm supposed to do some walking tomorrow as it's my daughters birthday and we have something planned.

I don't expect I'll be very comfortable regardless but hopefully I'll feel better in the morning .
 
My knee was better the last couple days but today was bad. It's really painful, I'm limping and waking very slow.

I spoke to the nurse at the urologist and the bleeding I'm still experiencing is normal or, within the normal range.

Hobbling across the cross walk today in the city today was a humbling experience. It makes you feel very vulnerable when you are jerking around in pain because that's what it makes me do.

I've been through it before buy this week with the biopsy and the arthritis and my spine which is in bad shape in a certain area and the cold rainy weather?

I'm at about a 6 on the pain scale with twitches from 8 to 10. I can't always get comfortable right
now even sitting or lying down.

I'm supposed to do some walking tomorrow as it's my daughters birthday and we have something planned.

I don't expect I'll be very comfortable regardless but hopefully I'll feel better in the morning .
I pray for a speedy recovery!
 
Ok I have the results and the news is good and bad but good mostly. Everything for me is a statistical probability. That is real. That you can deal with and make appropriate decisions.

I do have cancer but so about 50% of guys my age.

It's not the most aggressive cancer and it's not that much cancer. So far so good.

The options are remove the prostate, chemo/radiation or monitor which means a biopsy a year and lots of doctor visits.

Next step is the robotic surgeon. This is all he does. He is a real expert on what's going on with me and my urologist wants him to look because I'm close enough in between (which means my doctor who I like very much and my wife liked him too, is covering his ass.) to get another opinion especially an expert one.

Given what he could have said and what I could be looking at right now (and I'm not,) I'm a pretty happy guy.

I have another twenty days off now to pretend everything is ok and to clean up my act as though that were going to be possible. : )

At any rate. Pretty good.
 
So I do have cancer though. That is true so it's not yesterday and it's not maybe. I have cancer.

IDK. My dad was dead at a couple years older than I am now from cancer. He waited though,and didn't go to a doctor till it was too late.

I'm doing good, you know?

I didn't realize till he said "it hasn't spread" that he could've told me I was phucked, I almost called him to ask him like "hey could I have cancer like all around down there?" Yes, that was a possible outcome. And it could have been real bad, aggressive cancer too? I thought about it waiting for the results and I was like "no just wait and go and see what he has to say."

The therapist called me. I text her and she called me I said "it's too complicated to explain in texts" so she called me, that was nice.

My wife's exhausted and not feeling well and she's being real nice.

I'll probably look into shaving my head for cancer idk what's involved. I already have a thing which is autism which I don't do nearly enough about I could've been fundraising all these years and I didn't. I don't see me making cancer my big cause now but, who knows?

Everyone on my dads side died from it pretty much. I probably said this but I met one of my cousins as an adult about thirty years ago and she died a few years later a very young woman at 35 and left young children, it was really sad.

But this is my thing and it's gonna go the way it goes for us.

I was relatively healthy in my food and way above average in terms of lifetime exersize we will see if it pays off.

I hope I get some sailing in this summer, doctors orders, he said "get plenty of exersize," lol !
 
My heart is with you Mach123. I will be watching this thread and cheering you on. I am very happy that your wife is being very sensitive to how you must be feeling right now. It’s got to be a bit of a roller coaster ride for you. Please keep reaching out to get the support that you need and deserve.
 
@Mach123 - treading water with you.

How are you finding trying not to think about it? I find the exact opposite tends to happen but maybe you've mastered your mind better?

I'm really good at distracting myself and I have no trouble whatsoever being at home and not working. You know how people say "I'd go crazy being home with nothing to do?"

So until my next appointment I'm not really aware of it, or I don't dwell on it. (Im always aware of it.). I'm very busy with the two girls and my wife and the new house and yard. Now we are walking the beach again, the weather is nice finally. Plus my wife and I are going at it (in a mostly good way.) There is always plenty to do.
(Always plenty to complain about)

But I've been more depressed and in pain so physically and emotionally I'm struggling more.
That parts hard.

I appreciate your asking and I hope that explains it a little. I have a lot of people around me and when I'm not complaining about them I thank God they are with me.

As my appointment gets closer and we will face decisions it'll bother me more or I'll be more aware. I think it's on the 20th. Im not sure and I don't want to be sure.
 
I'm a little depressed and I just told someone else I have cancer. I wish I hadn't because the person I told is more a friend of my wife's but she mentioned a cancer benefit and I said it. She's the closest thing we have to a friend of the family.

I just came back from this car show thing it's a long story it's one of those things I do because I have to. I don't want to and I don't like it. It went fine.

I'm depressed and I'm lying down. My wife couldn't go she was not feeling well enough.

I should be working on the computer as my wife has been reminding me.

This is what being depressed is like for me though, everyone telling me what I should do.

I just have to get to where I'm able and I admit I'm slipping and I don't feel well.

We are retreated to neutral corners I'm sad because I thought we'd be all in love today lol.

When she's not feeling well I really feel it.
 
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