I have been in therapy for five years now but only recently started to really think about starting work around the 'root' of things, as I see it. Not even sure I can write about it, let alone talk about it in session though. It seems like an impossible task. My counsellor does know what happened as I wrote it in a letter to her right at the beginning, but since then it has been the proverbial elephant in the room as we have worked through a lot of other issues. This is the last piece of the jigsaw, I think. I just don't know how to work through it. We keep saying to trust the process. That seems to be the answer, but it is hard. I can't verbalise what happened. I write a lot in my sessions. I don't talk much anyway, but I can't write about it either. I can't even think too much about what happened. Sometimes I wonder if I am ever meant to escape what happened... For now I guess I continue to go. To continue to try. Despite the horrific feelings it leaves me with after session. Despite the fact that I cannot see a way forwards. Despite the fact that I have no idea how I am supposed to process the incomprehensible. I'm new here, I think I am hoping I can find something, though I am not sure what yet! Hello all.