PTSDisaster
Confident
I really want to dig in my trauma. I feel nothing when thinking about all the traumatic events, but I feel overwhelmed with other things in life which should be normal.
For example: everything that makes me think my boyfriend could be turned on, I get stressed about and I will vomit. Going to the store is also big stress event so I've been home for quite a while now. I do try and go shopping, I also get out of the house regularly and I'm doing okay.
Anyway, my therapist wants to look at what's bothering and causing anxiety right now, doesn't want to look at my trauma's because it might not even be necessary. But I get sooo insecure because I don't know the connections between my anxiety and my past trauma and I feel that I need to figure that out first so I can stop questioning myself if it's not just my personality instead of ptsd.
I already told my therapist and the supervising therapist while discussing the treatment plan, but they both say that they need to get my anxiety under control first and then maybe it isn't even necessary to look at my past of sexual abuse by my father.
We never discussed the events, they only know my father touched me until I was 12 years old. No details were discussed.
I don't want to 'waste' time anymore. It feels like every therapist wants to keep talking around it. If you're stung by a bee, you can put lotions around the sting, but if you let the sting in your skin the pain will never go away.
Am I not open enough for their look on treatment or are they not open enough for mine?
For example: everything that makes me think my boyfriend could be turned on, I get stressed about and I will vomit. Going to the store is also big stress event so I've been home for quite a while now. I do try and go shopping, I also get out of the house regularly and I'm doing okay.
Anyway, my therapist wants to look at what's bothering and causing anxiety right now, doesn't want to look at my trauma's because it might not even be necessary. But I get sooo insecure because I don't know the connections between my anxiety and my past trauma and I feel that I need to figure that out first so I can stop questioning myself if it's not just my personality instead of ptsd.
I already told my therapist and the supervising therapist while discussing the treatment plan, but they both say that they need to get my anxiety under control first and then maybe it isn't even necessary to look at my past of sexual abuse by my father.
We never discussed the events, they only know my father touched me until I was 12 years old. No details were discussed.
I don't want to 'waste' time anymore. It feels like every therapist wants to keep talking around it. If you're stung by a bee, you can put lotions around the sting, but if you let the sting in your skin the pain will never go away.
Am I not open enough for their look on treatment or are they not open enough for mine?