I Want Companionship But???

[Bill Dickerson]

Would they deserve to have me thrust upon them. I would like to have someone to share my life with but I'm afraid I would be toxic to a relationship.

Like Groucho Marx said
"I don't care to belong to a club that accepts people like me as members."

I don't feel like I have anything to offer. Well maybe a good sense of humor. With PTSD you definitely need one of those.

I'm not sure anyone would want to share my demons. I'm still not comfortable with them myself.

I'm not sure if I'm ready to let anyone get that close. That wall I've built is pretty tall and pretty thick.

Comments, questions, concerns anyone????

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[The Albatross]

Well being comfortable with myself was a start in the right direction, I was in a good place when I met my husband. I guess, my comment would be... that you can elect to continue within the boundaries you've made, it might be safer, but it sounds like it would certainly be lonely.

What would being ready to let someone get close look like? What has to happen before you may be willing to do that?

 

[reallydown]

I hear you...I have my wall up and am very good at keeping people away. I have, however, had a couple of occasions where I wanted the wall to come down and I even managed to open up a bit but then...I got scared of being vulnerable and I ran...and so, inevitably, did the others. And...up went the wall again. I guess what I'm trying to say is that a)at some point you meet someone whom you want to take that wall down for and b)even when you do, it takes time...Then again, I'm hardly in a position to give advice on this.

 

[Bill Dickerson]

What would being ready to let someone get close look like? What has to happen before you may be willing to do that?

I would like to provide for myself. SSDI doesn't bring a lot to the table. A place of my own preferably not too far out in the boondocks.

Women run with ugly wild guys until they decide to settle down. Then most women want some kind of stability.

I just don't see this happening. The stability part not the wild guys part.

Ideally win Ten million dollars and a large bus to travel around the country. That way once I have thoroughly angered all of the local townspeople I can move on to harass another community.