Sufferer Need People Who Can Relate

[misti_angel]

So I am on here tonight because I need some help not that my husband doesn't try to help. Lately I am having trouble with life in general I isolate myself and self medicate but what would really help is to know that there is someone who can understand me and actually care when I am having a difficult time. Yeah I know there are counselors but its different when one is paid to listen. When it is someone with the same troubles dealing with life as many are its nice to have a go to sponsor or friend, which is why I am here.

 

[Tanishq]

Yes, I understand what you are asking for! Counselor decreased pain or they let you to talk with some human beings. Yet, you are demanding for love and support. Of course, you deserve it and you will get.

Hello misti angel and welcome to the forums. You will get help, questions and thoughts regarding to your issues. :)

 

[misti_angel]

Thats good and reassuring. Thanks for getting back to me so quickly. I would be interested in making some connections on here possibly with you if you are available. Just to try to get some sort of control or order in my life because as it stands now the isolation I have put myself into and my other actions towards people have left me with few friends.

 

[Shellbell]

Hi misti-angel,

Welcome to the forum. There are lots of people with similar happening in their lives who do understand. And lots of advice and knowledge.

I understand the isolating and not coping or dealing with life well in general. I'm having the same problems. I'm taking medication atm rather than self medicating, but I know the need to medicate in some way to help get through it and to take some of the pain away.

Hope you find the forum useful and helpful.

 

[Tanishq]

I would be interested in making some connections on here possibly with you if you are available.

You're most welcome. I understand your situation and feel free to share anything you want. :)

I have isolated myself,too. It happens when you are going through roughest phase of your life and it makes you think that isolating will be better for yourself. But it can make it more worse,too. You have to remain in contact with people you can trust and I am glad you have at least few friends left with you.

Do you talk to them regularly? Do they know/understand about your issues?

 

[misti_angel]

Hi misti-angel,

Welcome to the forum. There are lots of people with similar happening in their lives who do understand. And lots of advice and knowledge.

I have no insurance for medication so I just try to medicate the safest way I can. Thank you for replying and its nice to know I am not the only one. Not that I wish this on anyone. I have complex ptsd but have not been in combat and thats why I havent joined this kind of group before because I know the veterns have it worse so I would feel like I was disrespecting them. I am proud of our veterns and thank them for all they do.

 

[misti_angel]

You're most welcome. I understand your situation and feel free to share anything you want. :)

I dont talk much about it with my only friend because I feel like I can be a bother with my anger issues, crying when I wake up over nothing it seems and the having to take sleeping pills just to sleep which sucks and sometimes I feel like I have more friends with the unknown people in my dreams so there fore I dont want to wake up because these people exist only in my dreams and its depressing to wake up and know that I dont have the connections I want and have tried and messed up with my family (sisters and brothers have nothing much to do with me and my other family just shakes it off saying "yeah she had a bad childhood" that they really didn't try to save me from I just kept getting thrown back into that situation)

So in regards to your last question I try to talk but don't want a pity party but no one knows how to respond nor did my past friends know how to relate I understand I have had a complex and long life for being so young but I also realize if I don't get this under control its not living. I lose jobs, friends and the trust issues I have make me not work on many relationships with respect to my husband and my one friend. If you would like to know my story I would be happy to share just would rather do it in a more private setting because I have put myself out there to many and they just walk away because they lack the life experience needed. My father who is just a sperm donor explained my history of violence and abuse as how one is raised in the country and so I have no use for him.[/quote]

 

[Shellbell]

I have complex ptsd but have not been in combat and thats why I havent joined this kind of group before because I know the veterns have it worse so I would feel like I was disrespecting them. I am proud of our veterns and thank them for all they do.

You don't need to be a veteran to have complex trauma, and some people's circumstances of multiple severe abuse/trauma, loss of liberty and torture indeed compare and are in some cases are far greater trauma than the trauma experienced by some veteran's with PTSD.

But, our wonderful and brave armed forces do indeed have a lot of exposure to situations that cause PTSD and considering they are serving and protecting our country - I have so much respect and so much gratitude to them. They voluntarily put themselves in the firing line and for that I truly support veterans getting the much needed support, following injury or having lifelong issues like PTSD. I read somewhere they do not recieve as much support as is needed and that is disgraceful.

 

[Deleted member 1860]

ITA with Shellbell. It's not a competition. There is no continuum of trauma that says combat PTSD is worse than rape PTSD which is worse than car accident PTSD, and so on. In effect you're minimizing your trauma. That can and will hinder your healing.

And welcome to the forum!

 

[Tanishq]

If you would like to know my story I would be happy to share just would rather do it in a more private setting because I have put myself out there to many and they just walk away because they lack the life experience needed.

Take a deep breathe misti angel and tell yourself you have already started moving/going towards healing which you have been wanted from so long. :)

There is a private space for members on this forums. It's called as trauma diaries for members. You can start there letting out all your stuff, self analyzing and some other daily stuff you do. Know it can't be seen by guest. Only members can access and comment on it.

Ok, I would like to hear you and will try my best to help you!

Link for diary where you privacy will be secured: [DLMURL]https://www.ptsdforum.org/c/forums/trauma-diaries.10/[/DLMURL]

 

[intothelight]

Welcome to the Forum. :)

 

[KP the nut]

Hi and welcome to the forum.