Adrenaline surge; does this occur in a certain place or when you hear sound that brings the feeling... This sounds like a startle reflex
I found a missing price of jewelry I have been really sweating. Yay!
Oh my, thanks Whitney, such a thing never occurred to me, but perhaps that is exactly correct. I have never been "in-tune" enough to notice what preceeded it, just thought it was my body acting independently. Not as in rage but the physical literal feeling. But that is logical. I will try to watch what is around me, I bet it might be something in the background or something I am trying to tune out (even half-consciously/ minimize/ 'ignore').
I am really bad for that. I remember thinking years ago (until the forum described it as typical) thinking I couldn't be hypervigilant- I thought I have pretty good control compared to before of my startle reflex, only to hear things like insomnia are indicative signs. Not to mention I would think, "WHAT IS THAT I HEAR?..", and it was the tick of a quiet clock a floor away. Etc. Yikes :rolleyes: I know I would just try to (always) squelch the feeling, even when my body feels like it's racing or going to blow a gasket.
And I am bad for that, I don't 'notice' hunger or that, I don't think I am hungry, actually. Or I forget to eat at all or just don't notice the cues. Same with pain and injuries and that stuff. Not really new. I remember a sweet teacher I had when I was 5/ 6 saying "Why didn't you say anything?" if I'd get sick in school and I'd think, "How can I say anything (When it was imminent?)", lol :sick: . But it took me until now to figure out she meant "in advance", i.e. in advance of throwing up or fainting. Oops! I'll work on that! :rolleyes: ((((((( :hug: Whitney)))))))
I guess perhaps I'm not entirely 'hopeless' but hopefully clueless? :p
I find walking great to dischage it. And dancing is great.
I'm so glad you found your missing jewellery!!! Not a word of a lie Whitney, I really did say a prayer for people who have lost stuff yesterday, tangibles and intangibles like hope, etc. I'm so glad you found it! :hug:
I love music also. What has not helped is my ipod (battery?) died, for a while I haven't taken it (had it) with me. I thought at first maybe it was good, the silence or to listen more. But it would explain why my vigilance has gone up. I think I am very sensitive to sound/ music/ voices/ words/ things audible. I never thought I was because I had no capacity to learn to play music by ear (I thought), but it helps/ hurts a lot. Affects me a lot, I guess, I assumed it didn't affect me at all.
((((Sweet Whitney))))), these (LARGE lol) baby steps are good, all is ok, on a positive note I'm doing the 10 minute thing, trying to sleep more and DEFINITELY better- not up every hour, less nightmares, less nightsweats, less and less severe (relatively speaking) SI. Plus the crazy craving I've had for margarine (gross!!!!) and peanut butter for the last about 4 years seems to have provided night vision as good as Batman :p (Vitamin A?). We have sun and heat here and it feels so (physically) good, Vitamin D I think.
Plus I think the past stuff with the dog, well at the start I was angry because I knew how I'd feel/ react, but I guess that is knowing one's self, not odd just true. Had no say in the original decision so was kind of 'taken along for the ride' though I would have never chosen it. Then again, if it really did buy him time I'm happy. Plus he had a blast and as they said left here confident. I just wish even once they (his new family) had said "we are so happy to have him" or "we love him" (then or since). I have to admit, the place is making $ hand over fist (lots in un-accounted for cash). Good people but I think it's become a real source of revenue.
Oh ya, plus a couple of (big) physical problems I had for a long time have been gone for a while, my chest is all clogged up but I no longer get bleeding all the time when I'm stressed out, just minor. (Sorry for detail BLAAAH! :sick: )
Hey, saw something cute yesterday, at work everyone kept trying to give me a newspaper. I finally stopped, read the titles, a work-related one, thought that's what I needed to see. Another offer of a newspaper- checked obits, nope thankfully no one I knew. Nt time I checked the classifieds. By the 4th or 5th time someone (still) tried to give me one I finally took it and there was nothing left to read but the entertainment section, little puzzle for the day said "It's not so much our friends' help that helps us, as the confidence of their help". :) :inlove: (((((Dear dear Whitney, xox ))))))), thank you. :hug:
